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Sometimes I just wanna screammmmm. Whatttt now??? I just can't figure it outt (figure it out)
I wish I knew where I fucked up. I really wish I knew. Or better yet, had mind-erasing powers. I could erase the mistakes I made.
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Aww thank chu. *takes chocolate and becomes fat again* You're da best.
So this past school year I messed up. And fell flat on my face in mud and didn't stand up. Why you may ask?
Because I'm a failure. I'm a disappoitment. I'm a mistake.
Because I'm a failure. I'm a disappoitment. I'm a mistake.
I'm gonna post something that's gonna make all of you hate me. Deny it, tell me that you still love me whatever. But deep down inside you're all gonna hate me for it. And stop being friends with me. And I deserve it. All of it. But just know that I love all of you and I know I screwed up and deserve it.
xoxoxo ~ Trisscar
xoxoxo ~ Trisscar
This (school) year I met some new people. And the thing is I really wanted to fit in. I seriously did. So I laughed to their jokes. Made fun of people, and became the kid that nobody likes.
The people I'm talking about were racist. Sexist. And made fun of disabled people. They made jokes about suicide, and murder. They made me take the heat so much for them. (Got sent to the principals office like three times) And I went with it. I became weak and went with it.
These people would be so racist. They had so many black jokes. And Asain and so many others. ANd I went along with it. I didn't have the guts to say shut up you're being an asshole. I was weaker than ever. And my life went outta control. They were sexist and made fun of disabled people. I have a relitive who is disabled and they made fun calling me retard. And of course I never told them to go screw themselves. Whenever they heard about suicide or murder they laughed. Laughed I stayed quiet throughout it all.
This all broke my heart. You have no idea how battered up, how many times I cried, how much I hurt myself trying to punish myself. Why didn't I tell them to shut the fuck up? Why didn't I tell them that they could go screw themselves.
Because I'm weak. But please, please please know this. I hated every second. I never laughed truly along, I never found joy in this. I stood quietly and watched it unfold. And when someone caught them I took the blame for them. I am truly sorry. You have no idea.
I neglected to tell you all this because somewhere I wanted someone to love me. And you guys gave me that. So thank you. I know you all are going to hate me. Or tell me that I just screwed up or something like that, because you all are awesome people like that. But I know you're gonna hate me. Stop being friends with me. And fine. I deserve it. I'm sorry. But I'll always love you guys even if you don't love me.
The people I'm talking about were racist. Sexist. And made fun of disabled people. They made jokes about suicide, and murder. They made me take the heat so much for them. (Got sent to the principals office like three times) And I went with it. I became weak and went with it.
These people would be so racist. They had so many black jokes. And Asain and so many others. ANd I went along with it. I didn't have the guts to say shut up you're being an asshole. I was weaker than ever. And my life went outta control. They were sexist and made fun of disabled people. I have a relitive who is disabled and they made fun calling me retard. And of course I never told them to go screw themselves. Whenever they heard about suicide or murder they laughed. Laughed I stayed quiet throughout it all.
This all broke my heart. You have no idea how battered up, how many times I cried, how much I hurt myself trying to punish myself. Why didn't I tell them to shut the fuck up? Why didn't I tell them that they could go screw themselves.
Because I'm weak. But please, please please know this. I hated every second. I never laughed truly along, I never found joy in this. I stood quietly and watched it unfold. And when someone caught them I took the blame for them. I am truly sorry. You have no idea.
I neglected to tell you all this because somewhere I wanted someone to love me. And you guys gave me that. So thank you. I know you all are going to hate me. Or tell me that I just screwed up or something like that, because you all are awesome people like that. But I know you're gonna hate me. Stop being friends with me. And fine. I deserve it. I'm sorry. But I'll always love you guys even if you don't love me.
I. Am. So. Sorry. I understand and deserve it if none of you guys talk to me.
You don't need to apologize for the stupid things you did in time of weakness.We all go through that time where just going along with it,looks like the only way to fit in.Triss some of us have gone through this as well and you find that there is nothing to forgive for what you did.You might feel really bad but the truth is will forgive you and will NEVER hate,because that's just some us are.
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This is my honest to goodness opinion, I swear to StarClan.
What you did was bad, won't deny that. But in my honest opinion, as long as you realized your mistake and tried to make things better, even just a little, you aren't truly guilty.
You may wear the scars forever. But that was in the past. This is now, a new page. A second chance. You can't change the past, but you can create a new destiny for yourself. The past mistakes made you who you are now, even if you aren't proud of it.
You had the backbone to walk away. And everyone deserves a second chance.
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Honestly I'm crying buckets right now. You guys... I just.. I love all of you. I really do. There are no words to show how much I truly love all of you guys.
Wind~ Honestly you are one of the most awesomest people to ever walk on this earth. Hands down you're the best. I love you to death, and thank you soooo much for your posts. You really have no idea how what you say affects my day to day life. xo
Kate~ You are like the goddess. I love you, and you and your words are perfection and thank you. For sticking with me when I went crazy. When I just sulked for no reason. When I was a bitch, when I was being a nerd and just for being there all the time. Thank you. I seriously love you. xo
Wind~ Honestly you are one of the most awesomest people to ever walk on this earth. Hands down you're the best. I love you to death, and thank you soooo much for your posts. You really have no idea how what you say affects my day to day life. xo
Kate~ You are like the goddess. I love you, and you and your words are perfection and thank you. For sticking with me when I went crazy. When I just sulked for no reason. When I was a bitch, when I was being a nerd and just for being there all the time. Thank you. I seriously love you. xo
♥Kate (Sunsplash) (мσѕαι¢ вяσкєи нєαятѕ)♥ wrote: "Triss. I want you to change all those MOD titles RIGHT NOW. They are lies and untrue. PM me if you want."
AGREED
AGREED
*Shrugs* That's what friends are for.
вяσкєи ѕσυℓ ♬ ι ωαℓк тнιs εмρтү sтяεεт ♬ wrote: "*Shrugs* That's what friends are for."
You aren't a friend. You're a sister. And you too Kate. <33333
You aren't a friend. You're a sister. And you too Kate. <33333
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As your Older Sister,I demand you change the mod tittles. XD
Since when are you my older sister Wind? And I can't anyways. I switched and now I can't edit comments or mod titles.
Since I posted the comment that's when.
XD
XD
вяσкєи ѕσυℓ ♬ ι ωαℓк тнιs εмρтү sтяεεт ♬ wrote: "Since I posted the comment that's when.
XD"
lol
XD"
lol
Yeah I'm weird like that
It's 8 over here what about you?
...mentally hitting myself for not being here an hour ago to tell you that WE DO NOT HATE YOU. Everybody makes mistakes. Like Kate said, what you did was pretty bad, but the past is in the past.(Frozen reference.....*looks around*No? Okay.) Nobody is going to hate you for what you did, and I've seen worse. Kids going to further extents to try to "fit in." At least you, didn't, truly laugh at their stupid jokes, or...yeah...*awkward silence*
.......now i'm going to change the titles...*whistles and walks away*
.......now i'm going to change the titles...*whistles and walks away*
☠ℳeιyυ and ℛaιnвowѕ☠♬ι don'т care, go on and тear мe aparт♬☠ wrote: "...mentally hitting myself for not being here an hour ago to tell you that WE DO NOT HATE YOU. Everybody makes mistakes. Like Kate said, what you did was pretty bad, but the past is in the past.(Fr..."
You .. I ... I seriously love you guys. No words to show how much I love you guys. Seriously. *hugs Meiyu even though Meiyu hates hugs* You, Wind, Kate and everyone else you guys are the best. I love you guys and really I could go on rambling about it but it won't show how much I love you guys. xoxoxoxoxox
You .. I ... I seriously love you guys. No words to show how much I love you guys. Seriously. *hugs Meiyu even though Meiyu hates hugs* You, Wind, Kate and everyone else you guys are the best. I love you guys and really I could go on rambling about it but it won't show how much I love you guys. xoxoxoxoxox
Aww Triss were family..Don't need to express it just show it :)
*Looks awkwardly* Alright now enough with the mushy stuff.
XD Trying to promote some group and working on our group too.
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Kateeeeeeeeeee