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I hate thinking.
At night, when my head's against a pillow, lights are out, and the stars are alive on my ceiling, my thoughts are an absolutely tangled mess; each thoughts overlap another, interrupt one another, deafeningly loud thoughts, too many thoughts, too many questions and then all I want to do is sleep and sleep, but of course I can't sleep, so I just flip over and bury my face in my pillow with my thoughts screaming at me.
Too many questions.
Why do we dream? Why do we sometimes feel pleasure in a type of pain? Why are bubbles so beautiful yet so fragile? Why is nothing perfect? Why is Pluto's axis so strange? Why can't we prove that aliens exist? Why do we breathe? Why do we feel guilt and shame when we did nothing wrong? Why do we want to be happy when we're so upset? Why does tape not stick to the roll but stick to any other thing?
What, when, how, where? Where are the answers?
I am literally drowning here. >.<
At night, when my head's against a pillow, lights are out, and the stars are alive on my ceiling, my thoughts are an absolutely tangled mess; each thoughts overlap another, interrupt one another, deafeningly loud thoughts, too many thoughts, too many questions and then all I want to do is sleep and sleep, but of course I can't sleep, so I just flip over and bury my face in my pillow with my thoughts screaming at me.
Too many questions.
Why do we dream? Why do we sometimes feel pleasure in a type of pain? Why are bubbles so beautiful yet so fragile? Why is nothing perfect? Why is Pluto's axis so strange? Why can't we prove that aliens exist? Why do we breathe? Why do we feel guilt and shame when we did nothing wrong? Why do we want to be happy when we're so upset? Why does tape not stick to the roll but stick to any other thing?
What, when, how, where? Where are the answers?
I am literally drowning here. >.<
Big teeth, small kiss...
I turn to wax and melt like this
Melt like this.
Lavender Haze,
Djarum vanilla...
Turkish jade,
You and me
We have it made
I turn to wax and melt like this
Melt like this.
Lavender Haze,
Djarum vanilla...
Turkish jade,
You and me
We have it made
I've been sleepwalking lately.
Last night, I woke up because I fell down the stairs while sleepwalking. A week ago, my mother found me walking on the roof. About 2 nights ago, she saw me hitting my head repeatedly against a wall for some reason.
I once woke up at dawn to find myself on the attic. 0.o
I also once woke up to find myself in a very uncomfortable, and tangled position on the foot of my bed with a big bump on the back of my head. -.-
I don't know what to do...This is getting life-threatening really fast. I get these bruises sometimes without a reason. I got myself these deeps cuts on my palms when I wake up in the morning. I don't know what I could do to stop it..
Last night, I woke up because I fell down the stairs while sleepwalking. A week ago, my mother found me walking on the roof. About 2 nights ago, she saw me hitting my head repeatedly against a wall for some reason.
I once woke up at dawn to find myself on the attic. 0.o
I also once woke up to find myself in a very uncomfortable, and tangled position on the foot of my bed with a big bump on the back of my head. -.-
I don't know what to do...This is getting life-threatening really fast. I get these bruises sometimes without a reason. I got myself these deeps cuts on my palms when I wake up in the morning. I don't know what I could do to stop it..
God, too many things happen too fast..
Almost forgot about this. Gah, what a pathetic busy life I live...
That moment when you're called a lightweight.
I'M NOT A LIGHTWEIGHT. IT WAS ONE TIME OKAY?
I'M NOT A LIGHTWEIGHT. IT WAS ONE TIME OKAY?
I need to stop binging on TV Shows...
*waves* Ollo, why are you shy? :3
Bah! Nothing struggling with life :P :P
Do you have a journal here? :)
Heyy You're a blessing in disguise xD
Tizzy, please come here. I wanna talk :(
Sorry, I had to go offline :( Studies and everything
Same pinch. I had a really bad day :'(
Not here... I will PM you later :(Have to go. Sorry :(
One of my best friends went missing a bit ago, and its been hell ever since. I haven't had a quiet moment to myself since my mother called the police. Now I keep getting questioned over and over, and I want to cry because i miss her already and because some horrible stuff are replaying in my mind, but everyone's starting at me so expectantly. It hurts. It hurts a lot.
I keep expecting her to return, like it was a joke, but she's not, and every hour makes me wonder how will she come back. Who did it? Why? Why her? I need her. I always have. She is my best friend.
I don't care who you are, or if you hate me or not, but please pray for her. I don't think anything else will help cause its upto fate now. And they're still not letting me out of the police station.
I keep expecting her to return, like it was a joke, but she's not, and every hour makes me wonder how will she come back. Who did it? Why? Why her? I need her. I always have. She is my best friend.
I don't care who you are, or if you hate me or not, but please pray for her. I don't think anything else will help cause its upto fate now. And they're still not letting me out of the police station.
~Important facts:
My full name is Tinath Maya Effiel (Eh-fiy-aal) Zaeba Karim and I live in a neglected corner of the earth, in a lonely manor that I wander around in. I'm scared of the dark, I'm scared of any sort of insects; in fact I get scared easily. Its a weakness really.
I believe looking beautiful and being beautiful are two different things; just like how wanting to be there for me and being there with me are.
I am a happy person who gets depressed sometimes, and doesn't really like to talk about her past. I fangirl too much and often look like I'm sort of five-year-old on an overdose of too much sugar. I read too much, write too much, procrastinate too much and make too many mistakes.