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Jacqueline (Granddaughter of Apollo and Hades)(Goddess of Misunderstood Sarcasm)(Probably will not reply as much.) wrote: "Do you guys ever think in terms of two separate streams of thought?"Definitely. Not only two, but multiple. Sometimes they converge, sometimes they don't.
Jacqueline (Granddaughter of Apollo and Hades)(Goddess of Misunderstood Sarcasm)(Probably will not reply as much.) wrote: "This is probably completely random, but for adding a story about how you met a Goodreads friend, there should not be any options saying "fate brought us together" and "we hooked up." The first one ..."I didn't know GR had such an option. Yeesh. Whoever put these options in was definitely too lazy to actually think of something sensible.
Pretty sure I just had a panic attack.... holy f*ck I do not like the third floor, I spent like five or six minutes finding the class because it's too spread out, I went up and down the stairs god knows how many times till I found it. I can't breathe and I'm so light headed and panicked, I honestly feel sick, I've never really had a panic attack but I think I just did, sorry to those who've had them but it's physically hard to breathe, think, talk, I can't do that again, I hate getting lost.
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Sometimes, everything reminds me of them. Working for my mom, seeing big carrots in grocery stores, waiting in the car for an hour downstairs just to have lunch with my grandmother, the way the old coaches had sewing pins sticking out of them, the way my grandmother kept making my grandfather chicken and my grandfather finally telling her that he hates it after thirty years together.... Heh. I think my earliest memories of my grandfather and dancing and running around the living room and dining room. I miss them. :'(
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Awwwww I hope you're okay <3 If you need to talk, I'm here...
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Oh god tell me about it *eyeroll*
I thought you were my friend. What the f*ck happened? What did I do? You both were my best friends, then you just dropped. Even blocked my number and on social media. It's nice to know you hate me, I hate myself too. You made my life so "better" just leaving and not telling me why. I still am not able to accept that I lost you both... and now might be looking another best friend. What did I do wrong?
Muffin ~Don't lean on me. I may not be able to keep you steady~ wrote: "I thought you were my friend. What the f*ck happened? What did I do? You both were my best friends, then you just dropped. Even blocked my number and on social media. It's nice to know you hate me,..."Muffin, I'm sorry to hear that, hey if you ever need to talk I'm here alright? Just remember that though I tell you this in person, that I'm here and you've come to mean a lot to me over the past year or so, just remember that you can always talk with me.
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For the most part, my depression was gone. Well, until about half a month ago. Except for the moments that I felt like strangling my dad- mainly when he was talking about politics. He kind of argues both sides, but in the end, he makes everyone out to just not know any better- which makes me feel even more depressed. Sigh. I don't know anymore.
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I don't know. Today kind of sucks. Barely slept any last night and I was in a bad mood for about half of the day. My day started earlier than usual with my mom yelling at me and my mood swings being effected by coming on here. Then, I had an orthodontist appointment that took forever and, earlier that day, there was a train accident below the mall nearby. At least, there were no one died in the accident. And I also stayed out, because I knew staying home would be worse. Being idle at home is worse than keeping moving.
I felt cynical, morbid, and sarcastic all day. Also, I felt something else, but I am not sure how to describe it. I felt it before maybe a few days ago when I was online. Maybe I have become too emotionally connected to my characters.
And then, on top of that, I think I am starting to like someone new (as if I needed more problems). He is not someone that I would normally like, but he is sweet and naturally, as he is one of the few guys that every girl ought to be interested in, he already has someone. Sigh. I should just sever all ties before I really do something stupid, because I have already made a fool of myself several times.
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I guess I just feel like everyone has grown up and done something and well, I haven't really. Funny, how humiliation becomes embarrassment and then eventually goes hand in hand with guilt. Everyone is in college, has jobs, has something to explore, has new friends and relationships. And this is all sucks. Well, not for them, obviously, but just for me. Am I overreacting and feeling self-pity? Probably. Maybe has something to do my mood swings this week and being let down. Seems silly I should let a guy get to me, doesn't it? I should be able to just get move past it and focus on what I need to. Sigh. I don't remember focusing and ignoring guys being so hard. You would think that after recovering from depression and anxiety that something as silly as a crush would not be problematic or maybe cut you some slack and not present itself. Lol I am going off topic again, aren't I? I will probably be right as rain by the next week. Just a little emotional setback. I have some plans for the near future that I am working on. I suppose the morals of the story are: studies first and possible boyfriends and girlfriends can wait or be hanged; stay focused on your plans for the future; and stay optimistic and yada yada yada. The end.
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Sigh Probably for the best anyways. Right now I am in one of those moods where I will bite your head off if you do any of the following: talk to me, look at me the wrong way and, well, aggravate me in other ways. Sigh. Lol I don't remember being quite this much of a b*tch earlier in my teens.
Well, I just joined, and I just read them. It's good to get stuff off your mind, to outlet it. If you find yourself back here wanting to talk to someone, I'm always open for a conversation.
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Thanks, Mac. :) And welcome to the CHB group.
Jacqueline (Granddaughter of Apollo & Hades)(Clown Princess of Crime) wrote: "Lol Does anyone even read these; or do they see I posted, see I am in a b*tchy mood, and then ignore them? LolSigh Probably for the best anyways. Right now I am in one of those moods where I will..."
I just recently joined, and I did, in fact, read all those posts. And I getcha. Life is really hard sometimes (all the time), and sometimes the whole world seems to be against you and there's no one you can trust. I understand that from experience too. It's tough. :(
I don't want to say any cliché advice, but keep trucking through and hope for better times ahead. As a Lord of the Rings fan, my favorite quote ever is this, "'But in the end it’s only a passing thing, this shadow; even darkness must pass.'" (– Samwise Gamgee)
I'm always all-ears if you ever just want someone to talk to. I like to listen and share advice when necessary (unless asked not to).
I agree with Mac too: It's good to have a safe haven to outlet. We got your back.
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Lol Thanks, Nathan. You even completed your advice with a cool quote. Lol I definitely think that I would do something like that.
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Wow, I sound so st*p *d and pathetic sometimes. 🤔
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I don't know. How old are you?
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It's okay. I guess this was all bound to happen sooner or later.
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Thanks.
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I'm super stressed right now - I found out that this academic camp I'm going to the next two weeks only admits 20 high schoolers out of the entire country. I'm a freshman, and I'm super worried that I'll be way out of my league
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Ive been really stressed out recently because of some school stuff and I've been on here to wind down a bit and relax, but lately it hasn't been much fun and it's becoming another source of stress and I'm thinking about quitting rping all together
I know it's summer, I'm at this camp where we have three weeks to do PreCal, and I'm way behind where I want to be, and if I don't finish I'll have to take it next year
It is a camp, and it's actually pretty fun, aside from me stressing over my class. Plus, we've gone out of our way to make sure I'm able to do calculus next year, so if this doesn't work out, I look like an pretentious egotistical little brat
Thursday: That is sensible.
Brooke: And very stiff. I don't really like the whole romantic option about fate, but the second is not so bad.
Thursday: @Brooke You mean, old-fashioned and private.
Brooke: Yeah, whatever. Call it what you want.