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Sep 23, 2016 11:56AM
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-sigh- I just had an eye doctor appointment after I realized my vision got worse, even with glasses, I just got them in February so they said my right eye seems to be worsening very fast. They said if my right eye gets any worse by March then they're going to have to slow the process down, my mom thinks that means surgery.... I hope not.
*Sympathetic tongue clicking* Have a good day, everyone who hasn't had one in a while :D
Honestly, does anyone know how to respect their teachers anymore? I just about smacked a classmate last block because they were being so disrespectful towards the teacher.
What happened to the Poseidon cabin jgtuvyiruyrtuftiuv
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Kyle wrote: "Muffin ~Can I have some waffles with blueberries please?~ wrote: "Why am I always using the Rant Chat a lot?Sheesh...
It feels so nice when my friends ignore me. I message them, and it says the r..."
That's what I figure XD
I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared.... I'm terrified so very terrified, I feel sick, I'm shaking and I'm nervous.
I never should have unblocked him. It was wrong, but I did it anyway. Ended up crying at 10-11pm over the horrible things he called me. Thanks for making me feel 'loved.'
Muffin ~Im a deer in the headlights~ wrote: "I never should have unblocked him. It was wrong, but I did it anyway. Ended up crying at 10-11pm over the horrible things he called me. Thanks for making me feel 'loved.'"
WHO?! WHERE?! *prepares assortment of weapons* WO HURT MY MUFFIN?!
Muffin ~Im a deer in the headlights~ wrote: "I never should have unblocked him. It was wrong, but I did it anyway. Ended up crying at 10-11pm over the horrible things he called me. Thanks for making me feel 'loved.'"
Whoever it is, what he says doesn'tmatter. You need to know you're a great person. First of all, block him again. Delete those texts. Now remember that people love you and they have a reason to do so.
BookishSerendipity wrote: "Muffin ~Im a deer in the headlights~ wrote: "I never should have unblocked him. It was wrong, but I did it anyway. Ended up crying at 10-11pm over the horrible things he called me. Thanks for maki..."
EXACTLY! We love you Moofin!
Thank you.. It's nice to know y'all love me.I re-blocked him, and my friend from school even messaged him about what he did. I was already really sensitive that day, and he didn't help.
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We all have those moments. I'll be alone at home, just chilling, and suddenly there's this random sound and I'm scared out of my wits. Then I tell myself I'm supposed to be equipped enough to handle this and not be afraid of these tiny and insignificant things. But noooo. I remain scared.
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Anyway.... There were moments that I just wanted to end it. I am getting better now, but I still have moments where I feel uncomfortable around things like knives when doing the dishes.
I don't know if you guys all have seen Sweeney Todd, but there is a lot of blood, because the main character is a barber that decides to take his revenge by slitting throats with his razor. And those scenes in which people are killed... They still give me that strange feeling.
Why now in particular is because a couple days ago my music private lesson teacher brought in a book of Sweeney Todd music for me to look at.
I'm not sure I love my mother even though she's not one of those "bad parents". In any big way.But it was always the small things that mattered most to me.
There's so many things I cannot write it all down. One of them is that I've become too observant and my observations lead me not to like her. I think. I'm not sure. You can't just stop loving someone you've loved all your life. Ughhh I,don't know what to do. I already hate my father because he is definitely bad. I don't even count him as my parent.
If I don't love my mom, then there's no person I love in the world. And that's just bad.
They're my stars. But they seem to be putting out by someone. I didn't know who until now. She's just worried about me drifting away from God. But let me live a little! I don't want to be so sheltered! My life is sh*t! I've run out of meditation, and it's coming back to me. Act. Acting. It's like I have two sides. My happy/weird side, Then my depressed and etc other side. I don't know what to do. I don't want this. I'm so confused, and just.... Sh*t. (Am I allowed to cuss here? Oops! Sorry!)
I don't know what's wrong with me...I've been crying so much. And most of it is for no reason!
I swear I'm going crazy....
Ugh...
Also, what doesn't help is now one of my teachers always gives me anxiety now. I've cried about 10 times in 2 weeks....
Me about 3-4 years ago, too. One thing, you're not going crazy. And you just want to stop crying because crying feels bad but you're feeling bad and that's why you're crying. Been there. Just do something to distract you for a long time. Then maybe you'll start returning to your ordinary state.
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These days, he is worse. Especially since before the election.
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Can you please stop with the sarcasm? This thread is supposed to be for people to vent. If you don't like it, I would suggest you not read people's posts in this thread.
Yeah in my city Catholics and Christians used to be really bad. They all used to demean me. For some reason, as the years went by, they started calming down a bit and I was accepted more. Maybe just give it some time? Everyone is going crazy after this election, it will get worse until next year, I believe. In the future though, maybe your dad will calm down. The election was given a lot of hype and wrongful news. People are outraged. Once that all dims down though, I believe he will calm down a little bit to? I hope it all ends up going well for you!
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Sometimes, I think it would be so much simpler if my parents were not Christians, because if they were not, then they probably would have filed for divorce years ago. It seems like sometimes my dad uses Christianity to basically say that everyone else doesn't know any better. He makes it sound like only he and his god know better.
Mid-life crisis maybe? Happens to everyone! Do you believe in another religion or just something else in general? That kind of attitude and stuff is very toxic. It can bring people down. I can see how it can seem like a problem. Maybe just try to let go slowly? Distance yourself just a little bit? Are you planning on moving out of there anytime soon? When you live with people, even parents, things they do just bug you sometimes. I dont know... I only know bits of your situation so I can't say anything but I am a believer of things getting better in the future so I would say just hold out as best as you can. Things WILL get better!
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Well it is your guys' life and you may choose to believe what you want to. If they can't accept it, than I guess too bad. Just don't let them push you around about it. Just make sure you stand up for yourself when that kind of stuff comes up. Are you planning on going out of town for school?
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That would be cool! That would be an awesome adventure to have! No I wish I was in high school again. I'm graduating from college in december.
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I majored in criminal justice. Creativr writing! That's pretty cool! What do you want to do with that degree? Be an author? joirnalist?
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Those both sound awesome! I think you should definitely do those! Me? Nothing special. I'm hoping I can move to Colorado next summer and become a police officer. As far as my career goes, I'd really just like to do anything that would involve helping people. I would definitely like to get out of my city as well. I was supposed to do things with music as well, but right now I consider it a hobby.
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Yes there are. It's all up to what I want to do, though. The biggest thing that made me want to be an officer is they are directly involved with people and communities. FBI and CIA and all that other stuff just doesn't feel all that well to me because you're not affecting the people directly. Officers are always the first ones there on call. You don't hear about FBI agents going to a suicide call and stopping a person from doing it. I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel like I make a bigger difference as an officer. I had wanted to be a firefighter but they get almost the same calls throughout their entire career. As a cop, it can be a suicide call, or helping a wife from her abusive husband, or even little things like helping a child get on the right track or helping a cat that's stuck on a tree lol. I'm just passionate about helping people. That's great! I've been involved with music for 15 years but my problem is the things I do are more mainstream. So they're more like hits or misses. Taking a big chance to try to make it type of stuff. What did your bestfriend end up wanting to be? you said she wanted to be a firefighter? What does she want to do now? Are there any other musically involved careers you'd be interested in doing if given the opportunity? I would definitely say to do something with music. It is an art, and art is amazing especially when you're the one making it. Any art is a fantastic career as far as loving what you do goes.
I'm literally crying over Homestuck... Yay.
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My best friend is in the army and wants to study computer engineering. She barely made it in, because she had to be at least a hundred pounds and she is really skinny and not very tall. Lol Yeah, first day I met her was pretty memorable for me. Scrawny girl with very long hair wanting to become a firefighter.
I think my music private lesson teacher and my dad secretly kind of want me to teach music. I have tried teaching my peers and younger kids in the past, but I kind of don't have the patience and peace of mind to do that. I wanted to play music for weddings. I can sing and play violin and viola. I am also trying to pick up piano. I don't really want anything too intense, because there is politics in music just like in any other career.
More or less I believe they still do lol.That's great! How is she liking the army so far? How long has she been in the army?
I hear you with not having patience! A wedding singer wouldn't be too bad. I'm surprised you know a viola and violin and not the piano yet. You're so lucky you can sing! I wish I could sing! Would do the weddings as a career or just like a side job type thing? You are right about the politics, though. As far as music goes you can do so much! There are so many options with it. Is it just kids you don't have the patience for? You could do just adult classes to teach people to play.
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Weddings would be as a side career. I thought I said that, but I am so tired that maybe I thought I did and I didn't? Lol Anyway... I don't think you told me what you played. I also sing Broadway music and I am learning some arias now. Well, sometimes the problem is I am teaching people my age, which makes it harder. (One example of politics) I have worked with younger kids too, but that doesn't always work out either.
Sigh. I have to go. Exhausted and I have to eat dinner. I guess I will talk to you tomorrow.
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Weddings would be as a side career. I thought I said that, but I am so tired that maybe I thought I did and I didn't? Lol Anyway... I don't think you told me what you played. I also sing Broadway music and I am learning some arias now. Well, sometimes the problem is I am teaching people my age, which makes it harder. (One example of politics) I have worked with younger kids too, but that doesn't always work out either.
Sigh. I have to go. Exhausted and I have to eat dinner. I guess I will talk to you tomorrow.
That's awesome! Is she still in your city or was she stationed somewhere else?I play all orchestra instruments. I play the piano and I'm learning to play the guitar. I don't know why I'm learning the guitar because I can't sing with it anyway lol. Do you live in a big city or a small town? I feel like big cities would give you the problems you have. Maybe when you go to school, you can start teaching some people there. School kids, most of the time, can't wait to learn something new. You sing Broadway?! Wow! Yeah, I would definitely look to do something with music.
Okay well you have a good night! I'll talk to you tomorrow.
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I live in New York City. Lol So yeah, I live in a relatively big city. Although I live in Brooklyn, which everyone is trying to turn into Manhattan. Yeah, maybe I will. Tomorrow, I am supposed to babysit these girls and hopefully, it will lead to a tutoring job.
Lol Yeah, I sing Broadway and my teacher wants me to sing some opera. I also sang some gospel music in school when I was still going to Catholic school.
Hm, I'm delusional, haven't had a full nights sleep in a few weeks now, it's messing with my head, I just stare at the wall in silence and in the dark from nine to two o'clock, I just can't sleep, and I don't even feel tired...
I've been meaning to comment. Hun, if you ever need anyone or anything I'm hear. I'm sorry that you haven't been able to sleep, It really sucks. Have you tried anything to help you sleep?
Yeah, I've tried sleepytime tea, white noise, you name it.
Been having Anxiety the whole trip. Haven't taken my medication, and found out I might have another mental illness. Great. Wow. Just fabulous. Ugh.....
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