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Celestial and Saphire
Ryan lifts his arm. "No...Its because I'm scared of you." he teased back, turning onto his side and grabbing her hand again.
(Sorry if I don't reply quickly, I'm jugging rps and notifications are bugging out)Cher pulled her hand away from his and acted as if she were hurt by his words "And why are you scared of me?"
"I'm kidding, Cher." he said softly. Frowning slightly.
Cher grinned "I know, and I was acting." she said and took his hand "so how was the movie?"
He smiled. "Terrifying." Ryan teased. "At least that's how you reacted to it."
"shut up!" Cher laughed a bit "I can't help it.. since element lists are real.. I thinking maybe that demons are too."
Ryan laughed. "They're not real, Cher." he said. Ryan let go of her hand and pulled had close to him.
Cher smiled a bit and snuggled against him as she looked up at him "You sure? I mean people believe in Angels... but why not Demons?"
"Cher. Can this wait 'till tomorrow? I'm tired." Ryan mumbled against her hair.
Cher sighed softly and rested her head on his chest "Yeah I guess.."
Ryan laughed quietly, keeping an arm around her waist. He closed his eyes and started to fall asleep.
Cher gripped the back of Ryan's shirt slightly as she tried to not think about the movie and her past.
He felt her grip his shirt. Ryan opened his eyes. "Cher, are you okay?" he asked softly.
Cher opened her eyes and looked up at Ryan, a slight bead of sweat on her hair line. "Yeah..?" she asked, her eyes slightly wide.
"Are you okay?" Ryan asked. He looked at her, worried now.
Cher swallowed "Yeah... I just keeping about that stupid movie and my parent's.. Johnny.."
Ryan looked at her sadly. "It'll be okay." he said softly, brushing his finger up and down along her jaw softly.
Cher nuzzled her face into his neck gently "I'm scared..." she whispered hoarsely, she kept remembering her mouth being drug out of the house by a bunch of scary men as she hid under her bed with Johnny.
"I know." he said softly. "I know." Ryan began to gently rub her back. "Its okay."
Cher gripped his shirt tighter, trying not to shed a tear but it was impossible.
Ryan sat up and pulled her with him. Bringing her into his lap and rocking her gently.
Cher buried her face away in the crook of his neck and she cried softly and silently. She didn't move other than the shutter of her back or her hands gripping his shirt.
Ryan rubbed her back again, quietly humming to her. Ryan hesitated for a moment. "I love you." he said quietly.
Ryans rocking, humming, and gentle petting was actually pretty soothing and she was slowly calming down. She tensed up whenever he said that and she was speechless but she could hear the hesitation in his voice. "Ryan.." she said gently.
Ryan looked at her. He didn't want her to say it again. He wouldn't be able to deal with it again. "What?"
Cher swallowed, she wasn't sure what she would say "Thanks.."
Ryan didn't want her to see the hurt on his face so he buried his face in her hair.
Cher felt has if there was a knife through her heart. She felt like an idiot for saying it back but she couldn't bring herself to say it.
Ryan squeezed his eyes shut. Why didn't she love him? All those times for the past few days when they cuddled, and she let him hold her. Ryan felt like she was just leading him on. That it meant nothing to her.
Cher bit down on her bottom lip before saying anything "Ryan.. it's not that I don't love you.. it's just.." she struggled.
Ryan looked at her. "What is it?" he asked. Ryan's sad expression betraying his soft, calm tone.
Cher felt a pang of guilt hit her and she looked down. "It's.. that every time I tell someone that I... Love them.. they get hurt, killed, disappear, or hurt me.."
Ryan held her to him. "Cher, I won't ever hurt you. Ever." he said. "And I won't leave you. Never ever."
Cher swallowed hard once more, pushing back the tears that threatened to pour whenever he held her to him. "I know.. it's just I don't wan to risk it."
"Cher, I'm going anywhere." he said.
"I know... I'm sorry." Cher apologized.
"Let's go to sleep... I'm sorry I kept you." Cher said gently before pulling away.
Ryan let her pull away and laid back down turning onto his side. His back facing her.
Cher had her back to him aswell, staring off into the darkness until her eyes wouldn't stay open any longer and she passed out.
Ryan woke in the morning and stared up at the ceiling before getting up.
Cher didnt wake up till at least two hours after he did, needing extra sleep. She got up and stretched, not seeibg Ryan.
Ryan had left to go do some things.
Cher got out of bed and did her short routine but stayed in her pjs. She headed downstairs into the kitchen, not seeing Ryan.
Ryan had gone to the grocery store to grab some stuff.
Cher put on a pot of coffee and leaned against the counter, remembering what happened the other day with Daniel and shivered. She went into the fridge and got some cream cheese and bagels.
Ryan got what they needed and started home. He placed the bags down and opened the front door.
cher was sitting on the couch, watching tv, as she ate her bagel whenever Ryan came in.
Ryan grabbed the bags and went in. Closing the door with his foot, he walked to the kitchen and started putting things away.
Cher opened her eyes to see him covering his eyes and she sighed "I think the reason why your doing that now is because your scared of a ghost." she teased.