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Self-harming? Depressed? Panic attacks?
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Jun 22, 2013 08:59AM
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I sometimes cry in the bathroom thinking no one loves me and the world is better without me. Two years back the only thing I thought could help me was ending it. Ending it allll. Ending me who I am and who I used to be. But this dude in my class helped. He helped a lot. Making me think I'm not alone. My life moto "I can't go on. I'll go on." My parents argue ATON! I'll wake in the middle of the night hearing screaming and things being crashed. God, It's totally awful! Thats another reason for crying in the restroom.
Erylla. ♥ wrote: "I hate my grandmothers. They both scold me for reading too much, listening to music too much, going on internet too much, sleeping too much(I wake at 10 AM because I sleep 2-3AM.). Everyone scolds..."I totally know how you feel. Reading an music are like an escape to me and all people want to do is take it away! But its my parents.
Danya wrote: "I sometimes cry in the bathroom thinking no one loves me and the world is better without me. Two years back the only thing I thought could help me was ending it. Ending it allll. Ending me who I am..."
Awww, bad things happen to everybody. Don't worry. You are not alone.
Awww, bad things happen to everybody. Don't worry. You are not alone.
the same thing happened 2 years ago. and I still haven't got over it. all you have to do is stay strong and hope that the pain and suffer will end
Very true, Bluebrennan. *grabs tissue and blows on it* So true.
Danya wrote: "Erylla. ♥ wrote: "I hate my grandmothers. They both scold me for reading too much, listening to music too much, going on internet too much, sleeping too much(I wake at 10 AM because I sleep 2-3AM...."I totally know how you feel. Reading an music are like an escape to me and all people want to do is take it away! But its my parents
Reading and music are my escapes too, and sometimes I find that if I write stuff down, I can excape too, when you are the writer, you conrol the world, you decide what's going to happen, you can scream, you can rage, heck you can even go off killing characters!
Writing helps too.
they aren't. Look up at the sky, that's one tiny portion of the world, you have hardly seen any of it, life's an adventure, you should see as much of it as you can with the time you have, because one day it could be all gone just like that.
DQ, I can guarantee you that the world is a better place with you in it, and no one would be better off without you.
Cluelessly Sweet ( Sara: Lalala Queen's Twin) wrote: "Thanks Cooukiey. Gosh, only you guys can say that and make mean something."I really mean it, an don't you forget it! :D
Cluelessly Sweet ( Sara: Lalala Queen's Twin) wrote: "I'm depressed, I REALLY think my family is WAAAAAAAY better off without me. >.< I have proof. I have a love for biting myself until I bleed."
Oh no no no no no! You are so cool!! You know, sometimes it may seem to each of us like, "Oh no! My family doesn't care about me," but they really really do. Believe me, you died today and they'd be horrified at your death and they'd be crying and so sad. You ARE a great person! Don't forget that! =)
Oh no no no no no! You are so cool!! You know, sometimes it may seem to each of us like, "Oh no! My family doesn't care about me," but they really really do. Believe me, you died today and they'd be horrified at your death and they'd be crying and so sad. You ARE a great person! Don't forget that! =)
I feel like I hate me. Most people wonder why, but it is because I made a bad decision. And now because of it I feel like I am a total failure. I feel like people expect more than what I can give to them. And that I can never do anything right. Every time I talk to somebody, I always feel like the one who can never do anything right whereas they can do anything and everything they want and still be fine. I feel like people use me just to get what they want and then leave me crying myself to sleep and starving myself because I lost somebody whom I thought was a good friend to me. It has happened many times to me and I'm sick and tired of it! And now the bad decision gives me a better reason to hate myself. I can't forgive myself for anything I've done and I can't even tell others what my bad decision was without hating myself for it.
I just thought I should say this here. I usually act like I think of me as a good person, but deep inside I feel like everybody hates me and I hate me for causing this hatred feeling.
I just thought I should say this here. I usually act like I think of me as a good person, but deep inside I feel like everybody hates me and I hate me for causing this hatred feeling.
life is precious don't waste a second, anything can happen when we're least expecting it.Live life to the fullest and don't give a crap about what other's think.
The one's who matter won't mind, and the ones who mind don't matter. THIS IS MY LIFE MOTTO!
It's very true.
There are people out in the world who do care about you and who love you and the things you do.
Life's too short to live with regrets, and the things you do are forgotten eventually, its the way you ake people feel that matters.
I've never gone through depression or anything, but I've seen my friends go through it and I let them know I am always there for them.I'm always here for everyone, and no one has to ever feel like they are alone, because here and in the world you know there are people who care about you and who wish you live your life to the fullest.
There are bad days, but the sun rises to a new day every day no matter what happens.
That's very true!
And yes, I've definitely noticed that you're here for us all!!!! :D
I was starting to feel the hatred and anger for me again. :(
And yes, I've definitely noticed that you're here for us all!!!! :D
I was starting to feel the hatred and anger for me again. :(
Don't. You are all beautiful and make my day everytime I come online! <3 <3 <3 <3
Lucky Ducky Meiyu((QUACK QUACK♫♥)) wrote: "sometimes i think i'm fat but part of me knows i know i'm not but part of me believes it:("
No, you're not fat!!! Don't listen to society!!! I'm skinny and everybody makes fun of me for being underweight. So really society is lying to us about "Oh, you have to be skinny." When you're skinny, you are accused of being skinny and are told, "Oh, you have to be fat." Ughh, stupid society!!!!
So don'tlisten! You're awesome just being you!!!!!
No, you're not fat!!! Don't listen to society!!! I'm skinny and everybody makes fun of me for being underweight. So really society is lying to us about "Oh, you have to be skinny." When you're skinny, you are accused of being skinny and are told, "Oh, you have to be fat." Ughh, stupid society!!!!
So don'tlisten! You're awesome just being you!!!!!
EVERYBODY'S BEAUTIFUL AND I WOULDn"T WANT ANYONE TO CHANGE BECAUSE SOMEONE MAKES THEM FEEL BAD!!!! I tell you they are NOT your friend.
Tell yourself in the mirror everyday, one thing at elast that you like about yourself and then smile!
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I'm depressed. I hate me for being me. Every mistake I make makes me feel worse about myself. The only way to stop it is to listen to this one particular song and watch Sonic, but I can't be doing that all day. >.<
Sounds like its time for some bootcamp! Every time you find yourself hating on yourself for something, list three things you like about yourself on a sheet of paper or something, then focus on that! Don't conform to society, let society conform to get used to you, just the way you are!
Go online and look up beautiful places in the world that you want to go... :)
I was an accident and I dont think I should be alive.
K~ TOBYMAC (would die for ten more people to be happy) wrote: "I was an accident and I dont think I should be alive."
Why do you feel like you're an accident?
Why do you feel like you're an accident?
Cuz I actually am ahahahahaha.
I think you should be alive. I love chatting with you! If you were dead, I'd be bawling my eyes out here!! I'm serious. You're a really great friend!
✦~I'm Unique and that's Awesome*PixarFan #1*~✦ {Blaze} wrote: "Why do you think that way, if you don't mind sharing? You're a blessing in the world and you have a purpose! You were born to fulfill a mission no one else can accomplish! We are all blessed becaus..."
Couldn't have said it any better!
Couldn't have said it any better!
Why do you feel this way, Tris?
Tris wrote: "I don't know, I'm just so confused by myself right now... Help? :/"
Why are you confused by yourself? Did you do something you regret doing? Or are you having weird feelings?
Why are you confused by yourself? Did you do something you regret doing? Or are you having weird feelings?
I've felt like that before.... But really, there's so much in life to love, don't focus on the bad stuff or stuff you hate about yourself, focus on the good stuff.
I get out of that by listening to music very loud and reading a book.
Go out and treat yourself to an ice cream, shop, by yourself a movie and then watch it at home on the couch, or invite some friends over, and don't forget to smile. Smiles are contagious, and easy to come by. I hope goodreads makes you feel better, too. There are loads of people on here that care about the same stuff you do or like the same bands or love the same tv shows or books. Literally, you can find anything on here.
And you're probably good at one thing, no matter what it is, it could be burping, or farting, or playing video games, or being an expert on anything. You can show off your expertness, you can fangirl, you can do all of that here, and I really hope that you find a home here, because I have and it's really nice.
Smile, crank up the volume, even say yolo if you want, start burping or whatever it is you are good at, and just enjoy life. The way I see it you have two choices: to get fed up and to hate life, or to enjoy it, and although it's hard to enjoy life a lot of the time, it's just so much better and more fun. So, yeah. And I love you, and everyone in this world, and God loves you, and there are tons of other people in this world who love you, so feel better :)
I get out of that by listening to music very loud and reading a book.
Go out and treat yourself to an ice cream, shop, by yourself a movie and then watch it at home on the couch, or invite some friends over, and don't forget to smile. Smiles are contagious, and easy to come by. I hope goodreads makes you feel better, too. There are loads of people on here that care about the same stuff you do or like the same bands or love the same tv shows or books. Literally, you can find anything on here.
And you're probably good at one thing, no matter what it is, it could be burping, or farting, or playing video games, or being an expert on anything. You can show off your expertness, you can fangirl, you can do all of that here, and I really hope that you find a home here, because I have and it's really nice.
Smile, crank up the volume, even say yolo if you want, start burping or whatever it is you are good at, and just enjoy life. The way I see it you have two choices: to get fed up and to hate life, or to enjoy it, and although it's hard to enjoy life a lot of the time, it's just so much better and more fun. So, yeah. And I love you, and everyone in this world, and God loves you, and there are tons of other people in this world who love you, so feel better :)
Your welcome, please don't feel sad, the world's a beautiful place, and you're a beautiful person! :))
Dominique wrote: "I've felt like that before.... But really, there's so much in life to love, don't focus on the bad stuff or stuff you hate about yourself, focus on the good stuff.
I get out of that by listening to..."
I agree!!!
I get out of that by listening to..."
I agree!!!
Erylla. ♥ wrote: "Self-harm? Depression? Anxiety? Think you're alone?
No one understands?
Think your family is better off with you away?
Everybody in school (or even home) just seems to f**king hate you?"
Nope not self-harming, used to think about it but decided against it.
Depression, unless you count being a little upset with your crush for being a bit of a jerk, then no.
As for anxiety, well, That is definately part of me. I'm autistic so I don't think anxiety reaching like a 5 or a 10 is going to help me any time soon.
Thinking that I'm alone eh? well, sometimes I guess it depends on what I'm thinking about.
No one understands? well, mostly I think it's they hardly understand me, but I guess some of it might be that no one understands.
Hmm, as for if I think my family would be better of if I was away. Well, I suppose my brother would like that. I used to think about running away, gave up on that idea a long time ago. My parents might or might not think it would be so kool.
Everyone in school, hate me? Nah, I mean some might though.
Everyone in home, hate me? If you consider your little sibling almost always beating you to a pulp, then no.
Panic Attacks? Nah, just scared of being invisible.
I didn't know you were autistic.
Most people don't, it's cause I try to act normal, but those who do know, don't see me any different
My mum seems to yell more everyday and my brothers are soooo annoying. actually it's mainly one brother, and he just annoys me and my other two brothers HEAPS!and then my mum gets mad at him and then my dad gets mad that my mum was mad and then everyone's just yelling.
Sometimes music can't block everything out, and it makes me kinda sad to have all this yelling all the time.
you don't need to respond, I just had to rant a bit. soz guys, I'm okay.
That must be hard, Renée. But I've also noticed that parents need to be tough on boys or else they end up hitting girls and that kind of stuff, know what I mean?
well yeah, I know, I have a sore shoulder coz my brother. Oh well, school for most of the day. :D
Last night I spent like an hour talking to one of my best buddies. I didn't realize how much I needed to talk with her, but that one hour really made a difference! I was laughing and talking with her and it was just so much fun!! I really needed that.
Headphones are a lifesaver!...and neighbour's free wifi...
Renée wrote: "they aren't. Look up at the sky, that's one tiny portion of the world, you have hardly seen any of it, life's an adventure, you should see as much of it as you can with the time you have, because o..."
Does this sound awkward? I couldn't see this pic till NOW! :O
Does this sound awkward? I couldn't see this pic till NOW! :O
:O well it's a very inspiring picture! :DI'm so emotional god! ha ha ha ha!
yesterday in the library I was reading a letter from a very sad book and I was sobbing and year 7s and 8s were looking at me and my friend and then they started talking about a movie and I went full on into fangirl mode in 5 seconds flat! ha ha ha ha
I'm pretty sure lots of people got scared!
Renée wrote: ":O well it's a very inspiring picture! :D
I'm so emotional god! ha ha ha ha!
yesterday in the library I was reading a letter from a very sad book and I was sobbing and year 7s and 8s were looking a..."
Ha ha ha!! That's not weird!! That's just you being awesome!!! ;D
I'm so emotional god! ha ha ha ha!
yesterday in the library I was reading a letter from a very sad book and I was sobbing and year 7s and 8s were looking a..."
Ha ha ha!! That's not weird!! That's just you being awesome!!! ;D
he he he, then I laughed at myself and the librarians laughed with me! lol I <3 my librarian friends! in fact they have goodreads but they can't add me coz I'm a student there. :/sucks
oh well
I LOVE BOOKS!
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All you gotta do is nod your head and act as if you agree with all they say.When secretly you're just cursing your parents and the psycho in front of you trying to get into your head.
So no biggie.The more you try to put up with them,the faster they let you go.
Oh, don't curse your parents. Believe me, those curses DO work and they'll do more damage than you can imagine.
Just act like you accept but secretly don't, Erylla.
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PS Erylla,do you mean psychologist or psychiatrist?Because the latter seems a bit unbelievable.I mean you're crazily awesome but I don't think you're crazy:P
