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Ayesha
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Mar 30, 2013 07:38AM
"What I endured with my father was ten times worse then this and you saved me from him, you almost never let me out d yor sight and James this time what happened I was not kn you. She had mental issues which were never your fault. Don't blame yourself, you did protect me. Those two would have gladly used me many many mkre times of it hasn't be for you. You came for me. That's what matters
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He pulled her into his arms and held her "what did they do? And did they beat you or did Christi?"
"It doesn't matter"she said hesitantly,"it's over now..."
He nodded "right... But who beat you?" He pressed.
"it was Christi... Wasn't it?" He shook his head "that bloody bitch!" He cursed, his accent peeking out.
She took his hands,"I'm gonna be okay..."
"i knew she was mental, but to hurt you like this-did she call you any names!?" He held her hands to his chest as if trying to keep her from running away. She could feel his rapidly increasing heart beat, getting faster every second a he got angrier.
She just hugged him not speaking knowing of she didnt clam him he'd breakSomething
He hugged her back "please, Jade tell me." He pleaded, nuzzling her hair.
"I don't want to talk about it okay?everythings fine now so it's all okay..."
He sighed and pulled away "alright... I'll go warm the grilled cheeses back up so we can eat." He went to the kitchen.
She nodded and took a quick shower wanting to wash ur all away
He grilled them again quickly so they wouldn't burn but would be warm. He put them on plates and set then on the table by the kitchen area. He sat down and waited for her.
She xAme back s on his short her own others in the laundry as she sat down accross him. Deeming better now that she had showered and cried out drt
He looked at her "what would you like to drink? Milk? Apple juice? Water?"
She got up getting some water for herself,"you want some?"
He nodded "thank you."
He are his grilled cheese
He watched her. He finished his food and stood, taking his plate to the sink.
She looked at her plate silently thinking
He came up behind her and kissed he head "done?"
She flinched inolunteeily then noticed him and nodded
He frowned, pulling away. "sorry..." He took her plate to the sink.
He shook his head "no its not. Don't worry about it." He started washing the plates.
He shook his head "I've got it. You should rest. We'll leave tomorrow."
She hesitated but nodded first quickly getting her clothes back and putting on some underwear then getting in bed
When he finished he went into the room, took off his shoes and shirt and laid down next to her. He didn't touch her so she wouldn't freak out.
She tried to sleep having alot of nightmares
He saw she was having nightmares and hesitantly pulled her into his gentle embrace.
It didnt help sonce it the the men in her srs
He pulled away, shaking her shoulder "jade, wake up!"
Her eyes shot open and she pulled away relaxing,"sorry, dad dreams"she lied softly closing her eyes
"no... Its not. Its about Christi and those boys, isn't it?" He looked at her sadly, guilt rising inside him all over again.
He looked down. "I'm going to..." He stood up ",to get a drink." He walked from the bedroom to the kitchen. He leaned on the counter, burying his face in his hands. It was his fault she was beat and raped and now it was his fault that she was having nightmares. How could he call thus protecting her? How could he call this loving her? A few silent tears slid down his cheeks at these thoughts.
she took a few deep breathsto clam herself before getting up, hrr body aching as she ade her way to him gently laying a hand on his shoulder,"don't blame yourself"
"how can i not? I didn't protect you. Now you're hurt, having nightmares, and i can't even holds you or even touch you." He looked at her "I'm surprised you can even manage to touch my shoulder."
she looked away.It had taken a lot of will power to approach hmm partly because her body hurt like hell and partly because she didnt want to be around any men."james please, this was not your faultdear"she said gently,"there is nothing you could have done t prevent it, she is a phycopath"
He sighed "you need rest. Go back yo bed, please." He looked away.
she shook her head and hesitently hugged him,"your all i have james dont dontosnto yourslef please"she mummered,"it was you who came for me and thats what matters
"you're forcing yourself to touch me. Its fine that you don't want to be near me right now." He kissed her forehead and pulled away "go back to bee, I'll be there in a sec."
He nodded "promise."
He sighed and drank his water.
