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Always Tumbling Head Over Heels for Him
Am not. XD
Sure she is Shiv! Didn't you get the memo!
She is not! XD
Nope.
You still love me. :P
4:00 AM rant time! :)
Woke up closer to three with the nightmares. Now I'm just waiting. I don't wanna sleep again. Not gonna, most likely. Hopefully he wakes up... no... I don't wanna disrupt his sleep. I know he was up at like, one his time anyway.. just no. I tried to Skype him, but no answer.
Sleep is evil. Fighting your worst fears, knowing you're asleep but not being able to wale back up... that's hard. It's scary. It's life. I'm not going to cut. I just have to wait for him to get up.
It's really dark though. Don't like it. I can't turn on my lamp because the bulb is dead. Even if it wasn't I don't want people to know I'm awake. If they do they'll know I have my kindle and I'll get in major trouble. I'm so damn tired but if I go back under I'll just have to fight it again. So I won't. I'll just lay here and wait. Play aa and not think of how bad my teeth and my head hurt and not sleep. Only two hours till sunlight. I'm fine.
Maybe some music will help.. I dunno. Music has always helped. Music is perfect... I seriously love getting lost in the sounds of it. Think he's awake. Yep... just got a message.
Woke up closer to three with the nightmares. Now I'm just waiting. I don't wanna sleep again. Not gonna, most likely. Hopefully he wakes up... no... I don't wanna disrupt his sleep. I know he was up at like, one his time anyway.. just no. I tried to Skype him, but no answer.
Sleep is evil. Fighting your worst fears, knowing you're asleep but not being able to wale back up... that's hard. It's scary. It's life. I'm not going to cut. I just have to wait for him to get up.
It's really dark though. Don't like it. I can't turn on my lamp because the bulb is dead. Even if it wasn't I don't want people to know I'm awake. If they do they'll know I have my kindle and I'll get in major trouble. I'm so damn tired but if I go back under I'll just have to fight it again. So I won't. I'll just lay here and wait. Play aa and not think of how bad my teeth and my head hurt and not sleep. Only two hours till sunlight. I'm fine.
Maybe some music will help.. I dunno. Music has always helped. Music is perfect... I seriously love getting lost in the sounds of it. Think he's awake. Yep... just got a message.
Hey, baby. :)
How ya doin?
Changed the name, cuz why the hell not? XD
XD nice. :P
Why is mom so concerned with my life??? My hair colour is her choice, my diet is her choice, my school classes are her choice, the people I text are her choice... Ugh!!!
I'm sowwwwyyyyyyy
Me: *eats breakfast at 6*
Mom: *comes out at 8 and makes breakfast*
Me: I already ate.
Mom: What did you have?
Me: Chicken strips and oatmeal.
Mom: You're kidding, right?
Me: Pft... yeah... Of course I am.
Totally wasnt. XD
Mom: *comes out at 8 and makes breakfast*
Me: I already ate.
Mom: What did you have?
Me: Chicken strips and oatmeal.
Mom: You're kidding, right?
Me: Pft... yeah... Of course I am.
Totally wasnt. XD
Still. And good you ate.
Now I'm eating oatmeal and chocolate chip cookies.
Wow... XD eat food.
Pwease?
Yay!
I'm so cooooolllllldddddddddd.
Maybe I should turn off the fan.
I'll have to get out from under my blanket...
Yes. XD
But that moment of freeze when I run over to the light switch...
But then you would be warmer
I left my window open last night -.-
Good job, babe. :P
Something bad could have happened! Why did I do that??
I don't know...
*cuddles and revives* just don't do it again.
*cuddles* You remember how I sleep! XD
*smirks* still.
*nods*
Life is a constant struggle, but its all worth it in the long run.
I'm sorry..
Which ones? My ones on the first few pages? Yeah.
101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Well, I mean, I haven't technically... you know... ever... kissed anyone? But if *kisses* counted then my last kiss would be Shiv and that would be easier in messaging than in reality XD
102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Act like they don't. Friend zone them. Much previous experience.
103) Do you talk like your friends?
(The friends I dont have? XD)... No. Not at all really.
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Like... a lot more than once.
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Yeah. I have two friends like then and then a boyfriend.
107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Well --you guessed it-- Shiv. Talking to him now.
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
I would much prefer he didn't, but if he wanted...
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Surprise, surprise... Shiv XD
110) Favourite lyrics right now?
Oh my god I love music... Hm...
"You go to sleep on your own,
And you wake each day with your thoughts,
And it scares you being alone,
It's a last resort."
111) Can you count to one million?
I know how but it would take years.
Well, I mean, I haven't technically... you know... ever... kissed anyone? But if *kisses* counted then my last kiss would be Shiv and that would be easier in messaging than in reality XD
102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Act like they don't. Friend zone them. Much previous experience.
103) Do you talk like your friends?
(The friends I dont have? XD)... No. Not at all really.
105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Like... a lot more than once.
106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Yeah. I have two friends like then and then a boyfriend.
107) who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Well --you guessed it-- Shiv. Talking to him now.
108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
I would much prefer he didn't, but if he wanted...
109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Surprise, surprise... Shiv XD
110) Favourite lyrics right now?
Oh my god I love music... Hm...
"You go to sleep on your own,
And you wake each day with your thoughts,
And it scares you being alone,
It's a last resort."
111) Can you count to one million?
I know how but it would take years.
I AM A VAMPIRE