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This is a earth based religion,
with many Gods and Goddesses.
My main Godesses,
Well I dont think any spirit or high power as a name.
I just worship what they represent.
I fully believe in spirits.
I do not pray to Her everyday and sometimes
(Because I am new to Wicca)
I forget my own holidays sometimes.
I have an alter,
Many candles,
a skull of a shrew
(It came from a owl pellet)
In salt.
I have a little thing of salt and salt water,
I dont use this much.
I am always looking for new things to add to my alter....

In a few months I shall be in 12th grade of High school.
I dont think Inam going to live very long,
but I can try.

School is over.
yay
I passed all my classes.
in January I am going to Hoshicon.
excited

but I cut again.
Oh well.
I missed it,
I love it,
I hate it.
When I got my tattoo,
(on my wrist)
my mum asked me what it felt like...
(she was thinking about getting a tat on her wrist)
and I just said it hurt,
because,
I could never tell her that....
it felt like the pain when I cut,
mostly when when the guy
tattooed over a scar.
Damn
I think that was what
set me off again....
well,
lets hope I don't get s bad as I was three years ago....
My freshmen year....
I started cutting even at school,
and soon I ended up in a mental hospital for a week.
I saw the Doctors notes once on my board,
I don't remember exactly what
he said
but it was something like...
'is willing to help other but wont talk about herself...'
ahhhh


I love it so much, I love most Aloe plants,
I think I want to start collecting them!



I READ IT
WHAT
SO APPARENTLY NEA AND MANA WERE ONCE ONE PERSON WHO USED TO BE THE EARL WTF WHAT

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All was well
Now some back story
I am going vegan so I have seen Earthlings and have done my research.
Now a Perdu Chicken commercial came on
"Antibiotics!"
And I said
"Who yay so along with having their beaks being chopped off and being so unhappy that they pluck they also get no help when sick"
And my fucking brother says something like
"No they don't pluck"
I say "ya they do"
He says
"Not all chickens are unhappy"
I say "ya they are"
My dad then chimes in and says
"Not all chickens are raised in cages"
And I say
"Ya they are raised in giant were houses were they can't even turn around"
I then pushed my bowl away and left the table and sat on the couch
This conversation left me shaking, crying, and wanting to vomit.
How can they be so fucking dumb
Even know I am so upset
I just want to force them to watch Earthlings and see how they think about it the
ARGH
I am
YoiteKaneki,but in "real life"
I am called Serena.
I am 18
With depression,
bipolar depression,
Bipolar personality,
Social anxiety,
anxiety attacks,
OCD,
Aspergers.
I am also a Sociopath.
Now, I am not a killer, so please dont be scared of me.
I love animals more than I love people.
I have just finished my 11th year in high school.
I enjoy drawing, singing, and reading.
Books are life for me.
I have self harmed since Middle School.
I also suffer from an eating disorder.
Here I shall post random things.
Sometimes I will go days, weeks, even months without posting.
Please be patient with me.
You may post here about what I have writen.