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idk what I'm panicking about tho xD

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I guess nothing

cool

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shit running away is complicated.

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why cant it be easier? why cant it be as easy as just buying a one way plane ticket and boarding a plane? i just want to get out

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Remember when everything was simple?

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my sister said I need more fat in me. what? can she not see the fat already occupying my body? gross

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one waffle this morning and an omelet for dinner

I swear if I don't weigh at the greatest 92 pounds I will fast until I'm below 90

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I am u nbelievably fat

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it really sucks to realize you're just annoying someone

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I am always sad

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yet I can convince fucking everybody that I'm just great

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at least if we move I won't be known as the freak mute girl

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I can leave behind everything

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the sky and I are both crying

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I should stop trying

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trying to make friends trying to change and stop being an anti social depressing emo piece of shit ????

i should stop thinking that some people don't hate me because they do and I'm just too blind to see it

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I tried

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reading this journal entry I wrote on some paper a while ago when I was sadder than I've ever been

[ali ᵏᵉᵉᵖ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵐᵒᵘᵗʰ ˢʰᵘᵗ]

you rhymed.

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rhyming~

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I used to like the rain but now it's just really fucking annoying

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I told my therapist I'd try to go out with 'friends' two times before next week lol guess that's not fucking happening

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what the fuck did I do wrong this time.

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sorry I just annoy you I didn't realize

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when someone doesn't text you back for a day but they clearly have their phone because they're posting on fucking Instagram

thx for totally ignoring me imsorry

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I didn't realize that I was probably just annoying you

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fucking orthopedist appointment tomorrow

the doctor creeps me out I do not like him touching my leg it's really awkward and I'm paranoid and everyone's out to get me and every guy is a creep soooooo

my uncomfortableness breaks the scale of uncomfortable

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next week I won't be on for ten days

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on Friday I find out if my dad got the job or not and if he did and they'll pay him more were moving

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please I want to move

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i really wish I could be more outgoing and not only when I'm pissed sad or upset

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I feel like watching a sad movie

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my sister gave me this sweatshirt her friend gave her

it has a bunch of pizza on it

like the design is pizza
the style of the sweatshirt is really nice and comfortable but I guess the design looks tacky but I am wearing it with pride

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I've seen that movie like 10 times omg

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I swear I have the lines memorized wtf

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me too even tho everyone is annoying

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this sweatshirt is actually so tumblr omg

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I've been to the hospital in the past month over five times..

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I have a shit load of hospital band things omg

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reading thru depressing shit I wrote a few months ago omfg

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tiredness. why is the only thing I feel... the dreaded feeling of tiredness? that and numbness. the pain feels good, it wakes me up from the depression.

but only to plunge me back down into the ocean of sadness

it is a constant cycle and it never stops, ever

i am always tired

this forever feeling of sadness runs through my veins, coursing through my body. when will it go away?

i tell myself "soon" soon it will be over. but when is soon?

depression ends when it ends you

not true... it can't be. I'll prove that wrong. I will live a long happy life and battle depression. one day I will be able to honestly say "I made it"

illusions. it will never happen. I am weak. weaker than a newborn child, unfamiliar to the harsh realities of life.

I am no stronger than a mere shard of glass. easily broken to thousands of more pieces with just one step.

I am weak, I am fragile

the world is a cruel place. a place id rather not live in. reality is vicious and breaks the weak line me into pieces. I can't take the truth.

when did it all go wrong? I want to know when I realized what a filthy world people turned the earth into. I want to know when I realized I am a worthless nothing. I want to know when I began to finally crack

why do I bother to keep living? we all de anyway, in the end. I know I'd go to hm, or perhaps such a place does not exist. do those who do not believe in such things still go to hell? if I do go to hell, I'll be sure to go with a smile, fake or real. I will not let eternal punishment face me because I am much too stubborn and proud.

some people take pain and let it strengthen them. others like me let it break them.

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once it was only bc I broke my ankle but the other times lol

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omg that was so shitty IDEK where I was going with that ?????? I wrote that like in March

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I can't write omg

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I'm so bad at writing everything I write turns to shit

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when she texts back after like a day..

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and you text back immediately and probably look like a desperate freak oh

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oops