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[kyra]

#stalker since 2010

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:')))))

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I'm in the children's section of the library and there's a fake bus that you can sit in and a fake police car and I sat in both and rn I'm in the police car and I feel so cool

they're like made of wood and painted in everything and omfg :')

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:')

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little kids be walking past me like wtf is this bitch doing here

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no kids im the one in the cool police car stfu ok

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this little fucking posh kid wearing a polo and khakis keeps walking past me and looking at me :')

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skcfiaoskfkskskcog

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my life is very eventful

[kyra]

tell the little kids that he can eat a sack of poop cause your the boss here.

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tru

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so my day uhdhjsfkkdkff

it was hella fucking weird

this morning I went to lunch w my sisters bc there are painters in the house and yeah and then I went to the library by myself for a few hours and then I did nothing after and then my dad came home for the family reunion at my grandma's on Sunday and then tonight was fucking weird and I'm listening to the fray trying to sleep

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The Fray is way under hyped af

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my favorite songs by them are Absolute, Little House, Heartbeat, Hold My Hand, Never Say Never, Break Your Plans, Syndicate, Enough For Now, and Over My Head

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OMFG and Happiness bc hat song is so smakdkskdkskdkf and I can listen to it forever

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lmfao @ the motherfuckers who think I listen to hardcore death rock w screaming satanists

like I listen to "screamo" and heavier rock but I also listen to shit like the fray and Lana deal rey and fucking mayday parade and other softer shit so stfu

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my sister said all of the bands I listen to sound like they're dying but she has no idea what I listen to

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happiness
feels a lot like sorrow
let it be
you can't make it come or go

you are gone
not for gone but for now
gone for now
feels a lot like gone for good

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I really would love to see the fray live they sound so fucking good

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i love remembering all the friendships I've fucked up online and "irl" :')

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who needs friends when you've got a BAW

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almost 3 am oj

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but this is our ungodly hour

[kyra]

;)

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lost and insecure, you found me

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I'm fucking falling apart

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I can't stop crying and I logged back into my "depression"/food diary/body check account for the first time in two weeks and everything is going to shit and nothing even happened physically and outside of my mind everything is just tumbling down I was fine and now I'm not and I can't look at myself oh wow it's Americas birthday happy birthday

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what even is the 4 of July I forget is it the day that America became a country or what I don't know

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I'm fucking stupid for thinking I could help myself

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serein ; find your own demise wrote: "what even is the 4 of July I forget is it the day that America became a country or what I don't know"

Americas independence from Britian. Independence Day.

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There's only one person I want to talk to right now but i can't I can't I can't she can't talk to me anymore and I'm more alone than ever

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we haven't talked in months and I need her

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it's been less than a month but it feels like years she was the only person I could talk to about everything

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I remember we were going to do the abc diet together but then she got better and then I didn't and then I got better and now I'm not anymore

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sorry Katie

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how do you make up for months of eating normally
I've fucked up everything

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from January to fucking may I worked so hard and everything is gone now and I fucked it up because I wanted to eat like normal people and it just wasted time time I could have been using to lose weight and now I'm sinking again

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getting fatter and everything is gone

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anxiety depression and food problems everything triggers everything it's like a domino fucking effect I get depressed then I get panic attacks and then I start worrying about my weight I get anxiety then I get depressed and then I hate my body I starve then I get anxiety that I'm going to get fatter and then I get sad

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:(

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Whoever said I could be happy eat normally and not be scared and worried about everything one day is a fucking liar

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when spotify interrupts your depressing music with Happy fucking pop music advertisements

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I feel like shit

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nights are hard

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I lost like 50 followers on instagram but I don't give af

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thought about deleting my other account when I decided I was going to fix my eating but I kept it in case and I was right I still need it



no fucking autocorrect I don't need to fix my rating I need to fix my fucking eating do you not know about the shit that happens in reality

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here I am yelling at autocorrect bc it's an ignorant bitch
actually can I be an ignorant bitch can I go back to the time before I knew about fat and calories and I was innocent

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I need my oversized hoodie so I don't feel fat in this shirt

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can my bed be closer to this outlet so I don't have to sit on the floor and freeze my ass off

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everyone's fucked up