Be who you are: everyone else is boring!

[Matilda]

Hello! I guess this a sort of like a public diary or something, which is odd in itself.

1st June
Okay, well today I felt extremely fat. I completely and utterly despise my legs, they make me feel ill.
Plus, I have man shoulders.
Okay, that was today.

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Aww, well I have a bit of a stomach so don't feel bad! Think of all what your body does to keep you happy and healthy! :)

[Matilda]

Also, a while back I went on a sleepover with the girls, and loved it. But during that time, amongst all the candy and crappy TV: we decided to text boys.
Right, half of my best friends are boys: so I suppose I get on with boys quite a lot.
Though, I do hang out with the weird boys: so basically my best friends are hilarious, odd and unattractive yet strangely attractive boys. it's a chore sometimes.
There's another boy, however, who sits next to me in French. I find a way to fall in love with every boy in my year, but I hadn't really ever felt attracted to this one. Of course, he's alright, and he's interesting: but basically just a boy.
Now please add onto this that I am an unpopular geek whose best friends are a boy who cycles, makes model trains and has several aquariums, and a girl who is awesome, friendly but extremely like a character out of a horrendous sitcom.
Then add my flat chest, glasses and dumpy stature into this and you've got yourself a lost cause.


But this boy was only popular in the not-quite-popular popular section. (Me and my best friend worked out these cliques in my school today.) He is cute, and sweet but basically albino and NOT my type. I didn't like him in that way, he didn't like me in that way: and we were all okay with that.

But these things get disregarded in my type of sleepovers. I ended up texting this boy: first that I was drunk (I really, really, really wasn't) and second that I liked him (I really, really, really didn't) and third that I wasn't drunk (true) but I still really liked him (lie.)
I also expected him to go out with me after that, but got a polite rebuffal and a horrible emptiness that came with being rejected by a guy I DIDN'T EVEN LIKE!
Damn girls and hormones!

So, today I ended up sitting next to him in Science today, and it was awkward as hell.