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[literariel, grape taemin]

Devious villains... Me likey...

[[deleted user]]

Probably

[literariel, grape taemin]

Guys I'm at the beach

http://25.media.tumblr.com/a9cf1224d7...

[ɯɐɔ]

UGHHH jealous. I was in the mountains yesterday... :D

[[deleted user]]

I just came home from the lake ^-^

[ɯɐɔ]

OOOOHH fancy.


We have more storms headed our way. Shit.
Oh, and yeah. The tornado did cause damage. We lost a whole bunch of trees in our forest--erm, backyard, and our teacher still expects us at class. He's a dildo. xD

[literariel, grape taemin]

Woah, that's harsh. For your teacher to do that.

[[deleted user]]

Yikes, silly dildo man teacher... Silly silly

[ɯɐɔ]

I told him, too. I said, "Mr. Hand, we were driving here, and a funnel cloud was right by my house, and we drove and had to stop right under it. Debris hit my mom's car, and it was literally right above us, because of the intersection we were at. Then we drove over here."

You know what he said? "As soon as people hear thunder, they go nuts."

THE FREAKING SIRENS WERE GOING OFF! THE CLOUD WAS ROTATING RIGHT ABOVE US!

[literariel, grape taemin]

That must have been scary.

[[deleted user]]

Guys I'm so hungry I'm going to way the internet

[[deleted user]]

*eat

[literariel, grape taemin]

Ugh, just had a fight with my mom again.

[ɯɐɔ]

Discuss, girlie.

[literariel, grape taemin]

Well she told me to tell her whenever I have a problem with the self-harm and the voice but noooOoooooOooOoo she has to go ahead and get all pissed off because apparently I've been talking about my problems for way too long and way too much lately because she just fucking snaps and tells me that I'm an attention-seeker. Because I'm just like everybody else what with I'm not different or special or unique in any way at all, which I'm not saying that I am at all, but she thinks that I'm trying to make myself crazy. Well, this past Saturday I called her at 11:30 at night and I asked her to come over to my grandma's house where I stay every weekend because I was upset and I was crying to her over the phone and then she seems worried about me because last Wednesday I tried to kill myself. And I've been hearing this voice in the back of my head that sounds like a snobby, stuck-up British version of me and it's been getting louder and it's telling me that I'll never be good enough for anyone or anything and right before I tried to commit suicide it told me that there are 7.4 billion people on the planet and I have the audacity to think that I matter. It sounded like a movie quote to me but anyway, tonight my mom is like maybe I'll go behind your back and send you to a hospital for the sicker-than-you people how would you like that Ariel and I'm just so done with her.

[ɯɐɔ]

Can't read it, chica. On mobile.

[literariel, grape taemin]

Ah. One second.

[ɯɐɔ]

Ooookay.

[literariel, grape taemin]

There. Better?

[ɯɐɔ]

Ariel....I want to give you a hug. A big, big big hug.

[ɯɐɔ]

I nearly cried reading that, because it is exactly how I feel at this very moment. I'd be put into the residential for self-mutilation, bulimia, and suicidal ideation.

[literariel, grape taemin]

It just scares me you know. That was the first time I've eve tried to kill myself and I don't want to succeed, but at the same time I want to.

[ɯɐɔ]

That's the whole point of self harm. You don't want to succeed, but that nagging voice in your head tells you otherwise. I really want to right now. I feel like shit. I want to drag a safety pin across my skin. But I can't.

[literariel, grape taemin]

The whole aspect of being hospitalized scares me. And you shouldn't.

[ɯɐɔ]

I kind of want to be hospitalized, maybe I could get help that way. I just don't want to be drugged. I don't want to be filled with drugs I can't pronounce, that make me feel the way they want me to feel.

[literariel, grape taemin]

Exactly.

[ɯɐɔ]

I don't want to have my parents worry about me, too. I know that the hospital would take me in. I've called the national suicide hotline quite a bit. In late April, I was in a deep depression. I would self harm IN CLASS. I'm better now, but I'm only four days clean

[literariel, grape taemin]

I want to give you a hug.

I really do, I'm a hugger.

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

Arikins, Cammikins, I do not want you to do that. :( It makes me sad that you all want to take yourselves out of the world, do harm to yourself because you feel less than.(view spoiler)[ I, myself, have thought about self harming myself and I did once. At the end of this past school year actually. I felt so low because I had disappointed my parents again, my family again.(I'm very family oriented) To have all of them disappointed in me was a huge impact on me. So while nobody was home, I picked up a carpet knife and I just sat at the kitchen table and started to cut my left wrist. Later on my best friend saw it when she was talking about her boyfriend and she asked me about it. I didn't want to tell her so I didn't. Its healed up now, but its still there ever so lightly to serve as a reminder. Once in seventh grade I thought about killing myself, because, like Ari, I had a voice in the back of my head screaming to do it' saying that nobody will miss you. But I got better (hide spoiler)] I realized that voice doesn't have control over you, you just have to learn how to beat it.

Ari, your mother might have reacted like that because she is trying to figure out how to deal with it. But nonetheless, she should have not treated you like she did.

Cam, those people who are excluding you right now are going to wish that they didn't. They'll figure out what a great person you are and be crawling on their knees trying to make friends with you.

To both of you, we just have to learn how to conquer our demons. I love you guys and if you need me anytime, I'm here for you.

[ɯɐɔ]

I honestly am happy to say that I have the best Internet family in the whole world.

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

I concur! I am so lucky to have you guys. <33

[[deleted user]]

Ariel your mom makes me so angry >.<

[literariel, grape taemin]

She makes everyone angry.

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

OMG JB JUST CAME ON IN THE CASINO. KILLLLLL ITTTTT WITH FIRE! DX *cowers in corner with an Usa-Chan*

[literariel, grape taemin]

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[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

*clings to Ari* :'(

[literariel, grape taemin]

*lights a torch on fire and waves it in front of her*

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

*whispers* is it safe?

[literariel, grape taemin]

*whispers* No, not yet. *waves torch slowly*

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

*whispers* What are we waiting for?

[literariel, grape taemin]

*whispers* For his bodyguards to grab him.

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

He has bodyguards? Ewwwwww. :/

[literariel, grape taemin]

Just stay behind me as we make our way across the room. *takes one step forward*

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

*stays behind Ariel and takes step forward with her*

[[deleted user]]

*randomly teleports in on tardis* aye what's goin on??

[[deleted user]]

Hey guys

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

O.O

[[deleted user]]

•_•

[A(IsBack), Lead Music Orchastrator]

How how did you do that? O.O

[ɯɐɔ]

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