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Jan 20, 2013 04:52AM
Benjamin continued to kiss her and then pulled her closer so that there was no space between their body but just combined . He had one arm under her head and the other around her waist. He continued to kiss her as light as a feather , he couldn't help but smile and blush furiously as he kissed her .
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They were quickly a tangled mess of limbs. She closed her eyes, feeling her cheeks turn as red as his. She had one hand on the back of his head the other around his neck.
Before Benjamin was leaning down to her while he was kissing her . His body was not on top of hers but was on the side of his . His hand was on the side of her face softly and he dipped his head to make sure he was kissing her enough z
She was on her side eyes well, loving this moment.
He kissed her softly and then pulled away gently, he looked at her like he was in a dream and wanted to cherish this moment . He just looked into her eyes deeply with a slight smile on his face .
She didn't know where to put her hands so she tried around his neck, but it didn't feel right so she slid tthem down his back until they felt comfortable around his waist.
Benjamin smiled with a blush in his face , he leaned down near her ear and whispered," Thank you ". For everything. He looked at her softly and kissed her forehead lovingly.
She closed her eyes and let her head roll onto his chest. She chuckled as she remembered their first encounter. Man, that had been so bloody stupid.
Benjamin smiled and looked at her ," What are you laughing at ?". He placed his head softly on the pillow,nice and comfortable.He looked at her from the side and smiled .
She said, "I'm remembering what you said about how you like your women the first time we met. Man, I wanted to kick you in the face for that comment."
Benjamin laughed and the grinned mischievously,"I'm a douche bag, I know ". But he would never hurt someone, especially Madeline."Do you remember how we just started attacking each other on the streets ?", Benjamin chuckled and shook his head.
She burst out laughing, "I'll admit that was hilariously fun. You know as soon as you said that I labeled you as a 'pervert', a 'player', and 'hated by karma'." She laughed, "Now I'm not so sure."
Benjamin grinned down at her," You're not so sure because I'm awesome". He creased his forehead because that didnt make any sense. But he just shrugged and left it. Now everything was confusing, because they were actually getting to know each other.
She laughed, "You know. This is really random but I could teach you French..."
Benjamin smiled and looked somewhere else," You could, I know you could". Then he sighed," But it would probably be a waste of time ".
"Why? You could learn it. It would be slower than Rosetta Stone or whatever but you become more fluent learning from a native speaker," she said speaking from expirience, "Plus I know about learning a second language and what made it easier for me."
Benjamin closed his eyes and gulped slowly. He sighed," Madeline, after collage. I'm moving back to America. There's no point of me learning another language when I don't plan to stay here". Even though she herself was making him think about if he really wanted to go back to America, she made him contradict himself. Not in a bad way at all.
"Oh," she said, looking down. She had assumed he would stay here. With her. She didn't really want to leave here. France was her home, where she belonged. That was the problem with college. Everyone left.
Benjamin could hear and see that she was mind of upset about it. Benjamin sat up and then pulled her to his side, placing her legs across his and basically pulling her into his lap. He held her close and kissed her cheek," Lets not worry about it now". Because both of them knew what they were thinking.
She nodded. She could have guessed it would end eventually, "I need to go study. I-I told Megan I's meet up with her and work on her French."
Benjamin sighed and looked down. He held her tightly, not letting go. He held her close and said softly," Please don't be upset. I don't want this to be the reason why you're upset, I don't want to see you like this because of me". He couldn't promise her that he was going to stay in Paris, but he could promise her that he would love her for as long as he lived.
"I'm not upset," she lied. She was. She didn't want things to end. She wanted a relationship to last forever. That's what it was supposed to be, right? A chance at forever? But she couldn't leave France. She wasn't an American. She didn't think like them or eat their food. She was a posh Brittish either. She was a French. And always would be.
Benjamin forced her to look into his eyes by placing both hands on the side of her face firmly."When are you going to realise that I know when you're lying?", Benjamin added, with a soft joking smile. She made it so obvious that she was lying, maybe that's what he liked about her. That she couldn't hide anything an he would be able to help her. He didnt expect her to leave France, this was her country, Paris was hers . She belonged here.
She sighed, "Maybe it is obvious, but I'm sorry to announce, I'm looking for something that forever and I'm not leaving France for it." She stood up, heart broken. Again. She'd call James tonight. He was at least worth a shot.
Benjamin let go of her, he sighed and stepped away. Benjamin turned to leave, but before he went he turned back around and let out a bitter laugh. " You should really consider who will be there for you no matter what time, what city or even what country. Because that person is me. You're going to break up with me because of what might happen in a few years? The possibility I MIGHT go back to America ". He just shook his head and shrugged, he said sarcastically ,"Thanks a lot ". Then walked out and slammed the door behind him.
She yelled through the door, "You said you WOULD! This was supposed to last forever and how many long distance relationships do you know that work out? Zero. They always wind up with someone cheating on someone else, I'd pretty I won't be the cheater!" she collapsed on her bed fighting tears. Heartbreak number two. Her stupidity's fault again. She was wondering if love was real.
Benjamin shook his head and gave a bitter laugh, while he entered his room and banged the door closed. "You broke mine too", he whispered. He took his hand out of his pockets and turned on the stereo, full blast and full volume so he wouldn't be able to hear anything but the music.
She just cried. He had to turn the radio on like the night she had banged on his door and begged him to stop. She was so stupid. She had fallen in love again with a guy who didn't care. Maybe he had one thing right. Maybe it was better to be the player than the played.
Benjamin lay on his bed with his hands behind his head and the music filling his ears. He couldn't hear or think about anything else besides the music. Suddenly John came in and took a look at the place."What! The! Hell!", He screamed. Benjamin just flinched and said,"Sorry?". John clenched jaw and threw his scarf on the floor," Damn right you're sorry jackass!!".
Madeline somehow heard John over the music and wondered if she should go help him out. Even though Ben was just another name on the somehow quickly growing list of boys to break her heart, he didn't deserve to be yelled at. She pulled herself up, eyes still red.
"Are you completely insane!? Huh !?!", John yelled and yelled but Benjamin just lay on the bed and shut him out. Ben knew he had done the wrong thing by trashing their room. Benjamin just looked up at the ceiling with his hands behind his head.
Madeline quietly knocked on the door, half-wanting to not be heard. She wiped at her eyes, so it would be less obvious how she was feeling right now. She hoped Ben realized that when she decided to go out with a guy or kiss a guy or tell them she loved them, it wasn't because they were planning to leave her after college. Maybe she should wait till she was done with college to date for that exact reason.
John kept pacing up and down with his hands on his head," What am I gonna do with Ben!? You've been out of control, and you're not just affecting yourself! Your affecting me! You're so selfish". As much as John was right Benjamin didnt really bother to show any emotion. He was still lying on his bed, like he couldn't hear or see anything. He heard John open the door, and suddenly it was silent. The music was turned off and Johns ranting had come to an end.
Madeline looked down, "I...I heard you yelling at Ben from the next room. D-don't blame him. It's not his fault my ex-boyfriend showed up while he was there. I...I...Just don't keep yelling ok?" She wanted to run and hide and get away from here. She didn't want Ben to start begging her to come back like James had cuz she might. She was so stupid, "Je suis tres tres tres tres tres stupide."
Benjamin sat up from the bed, placing his forearms on his knees and looking at Madeline. "Stop speaking in French", Benjamin mumbled softly," Non of us know what you're talking about if you speak a different language".
John just stood their looking between the two of them like it was a tennis match.
Benjamin kept looking at Madeline right in the face, he didnt know why. But one thing was for sure, he wasn't begging her to come back or stay with him.
She hardened her gaze, "Why should I translate for someone who is planning on leaving anyways? Like you said, why should you learn a language your never going to use? I use it because French is who I am. But you never cared." She turned too leave. Choking back tears, feeling like she was drowning. Why had he had to tell her? Why could they have just kept pretending it would last forever?
"Might", Benjamin hardened his voice on that word," Leave, I never said I definitely will". Then he lay back softly on the bed, but then got back up. "No, you know what",he said confidently," I probably will leave. Because staying in France is not going to help me accomplish what I want for myself. For once in my life I'm thinking about myself, I'm thinking about my future and yet that's good enough for anyone". Benjamin let out a sarcastic laugh. He didn't have to deal with this.
"You said you would. You said you didn't want to learn French because you would. And go. I don't get why this is such a big deal. You are going to leave and I'm going to stay. So, ya, I get a little hurt, but it's not like you haven't dealt with hurt girls before," she couldn't look at him but she did turn around, "I can't believe I thought this would work out. Of course you didn't plan to stay. France doesn't seem like your place anyway. I'm sorry that this hurts me but why are mad?"
Benjamin got up sharply from the bed, he came forward quickly and looked down at Madeline, shoving John slightly. "I am mad! And I'm mad because you think that just because I will be moving back to America you think I'm betraying you! That I'm not upset about it either, I am! I want to move back to America to pursue my dreams but your stopping me, both good and bad! I don't want you to leave me for the time being, I don't want you to break up with me and never talk to me again until I leave because I want to remember you for who you are and what we were". He looked down briefly and softened his voice," I want to spend as much time as I can with you while I'm here".
She looked at him both startled and unsure want to do. She looked down, "I don't think you're betraying me. I never did. Would I come back and tel John to stop yelling at you if I felt you betrayed me? I really didn't mean to hurt. I barely even meant to break up. When I said I needed to go to the library, that's what I meant. I needed to think. I needed space for a few minutes. I didn't mean forever. I don't want to stop you and...and...I don't know what to do Ben. I don't think I could ever forget you even if I wanted to."
Benjamin watched her as she spoke, unsure and very taken aback at how she was speaking and what she was saying. He just looked at her when she finished speaking. He didn't really know what to do. He just looked at her shockingly with his eyes wide and his mouth slightly parted. He pulled her into a hug roughly and held her like there was no tomorrow. John smiled slightly and gestured that he was going, to which Benjamin just smiled. "I could never forget you either", he breathed.
She hugged back, gently smiling, "Thank you, Ben. Je t'aime. I love you."
( Sorry!)Benjamin hugged her back, holding her and placing one of his hands behind her neck. He closed his eyes as he placed the side of his face on her head gently.
"I love you too", he sighed.
((its ok))
She closed her eyes, refusing to let go. After everything that had happened in the last-had it even been an hour yet?-she just wanted him to hold her more. Hold her longer. To never, ever, EVER let go.
She closed her eyes, refusing to let go. After everything that had happened in the last-had it even been an hour yet?-she just wanted him to hold her more. Hold her longer. To never, ever, EVER let go.
Benjamin continued to hold her and to let her hold him because he didn't want to separate from her yet. It felt like she felt the same too. He held her head softly with one hand and wrapped his other arm on her back.
"Madeline, are we in a relationship? Are we boyfriend and girlfriend?", he asked softly. He was pretty nervous to ask this question, but he did anyway.
She didn't hesitate before nodded, "Yes, Ben. Of course. Please?" She didn't want to find out he didn't think that they were after she had already thought it for a while. She hoped-no, PRAYED- he wouldn't leave her, because she couldn't leave here.
Benjamin smiled to himself and blushed slightly , he kissed her head and said," I'm glad". He was more than glad, he was extremely happy to hear that they were a couple now. Who knows what could become of them?
Benjamin rubbed his thumb against her cheek softly and pulled away slightly to look into her eyes, his forehead on hers.
She smiled up into his eyes. She chuckled and said, "You know, in the last hour, I have had more drama than I have ever had in my life."
Benjamin let out a laugh and smiled down genuinely smiled down at her."Tell me about it ", Benjamin replied. "But it's all worth it", he said softly. He felt it and knew that it was. She was worth it.
