LET'S GET HIGH!

[Little Melia *Lady Of The Lake* (michelle)]

hello everyone!

[[deleted user]]

hey

@amber and ur probably happy with parents who luv and barely know the meaning of the word hate. ur lucky.

[Amber (the smiling cupcake)]

not really.........things r pretty rough right now at my house. Admittidly, every1 doesn't hate each other; but we're waiting on the hospital to tell us weather or not my grandad has cancer or not - so its pretty stressed :(

[[deleted user]]

i wish my family had tht kinda excuse 2 treat me like crap all the time.

[Amber (the smiling cupcake)]

listen Cici - I always hear you going on about how ur family treats u like a doormat, but have u tried speaking to them? A couple of years ago, i was in your shoes, until i just yelled at them for not listening to me, not loving me or not treating me fairly. Scince then, they've been slightly more coinsiderate and i've been more leneant. U've just got to ask urself, "am I being unfair too?", because it works both ways.

[[deleted user]]

look at the weird and i know it pg. i have a long story about tonight. thts how it always is. thats y i live in my bedroom.

[[deleted user]]

i meant the weird and im proud of it thread. excuse me.

[Amber (the smiling cupcake)]

@ Cici - just looked at it. I see what u mean. It happens all the time to me. My mum always has a go at me, but i've learned to kepp it under control. If she's telling me off, I look her in the eye until she's finished talking and keeps my answers to "yes" and "no". When doing this, I have to try real hard, coz i just wanna say what i want and give my opinion, but if i say hardly anything, my mum can't tell me off because i'm listening to her. Afterwards, I go up to my room and just lie on my bed and calm down. I'll do something random like fiddeling with some bluetack or doodleing. But thats just me, it may not be the case for you.

[[deleted user]]

*shakes head* thx.

[Amber (the smiling cupcake)]

lol - in my room now trying 2 do hw, but my book and gr is distracting me

[[deleted user]]

i gtg 2 bed. i spent the past few hours being yelled at and just barely was able to get on the internet and its like 10 pm. i sobbed so hard my whole body vibrated and a went numb when i calmed down. i wrote a full page of heart renching raw emotion. its pathetic really.

[Amber (the smiling cupcake)]

no its not! Ur getting ur emotions out - its gd!

[[deleted user]]

u want to see em? here they r

Im sitting her crying and nobody cares. Some how this is my fault and I cant see how. I want to talk to anybody but them but they cut me off. All dad did was yell at me. He saw me crying bawling my eyes out, he knew I was worked up, but he didn’t tell me it was ok or be gentle, or try to calm me down. He didn’t give me a shoulder to cry on. He did explain what I did wrong even when I told him I couldn’t see it. I told him everything about how I feel right now and he just made it worse. If he hates me so much cant he just kill me and let me out of my misery? Give me a good punch or slap and let it out so I can think? Cant he give me a chance to think and talk? Cant he listen to me for once? He said I was selfish and mean and tht if I didn’t change I would have nobody. Right after he told me he nvr wanted me to change for him. I’ve nvr cried so hard in my life and I don’t care. Dot they realize tht I know im a horrible person and they hate and im trying to change? Don’t hey realize im asking my friends for advice to change so I can make myself better? I don’t see why they don’t care. I wonder if they would react the same if they knew my thoughts, my feelings. I wonder if they would react the same if they knew what I think about myself. They don’t know how much I hate myself. They ont know how much worse they make it. They don’t know what I go through or how many tears I cry.. they don’t know what happened but they yell at me anyways. SOMEBODY PLEASE EXPLAIN WHY I HAD TO BE SUCH A HORRIBLE PERSON?! PLEASE EXPLAIN WHY EVEYBOFY HATES ME?! PLEASE I NEED SOMEONE WHO CARES. I want to die right now. All I do is mess up, ik tht, but I wish tht the ppl who r supposed to luv me, r supposed to care, r supposed to have my back did. Im so alone. My family just stabs me in the back. Im sick and tired of this. Of messing up. Of being yelled at . OF being lied to. If their going to hurt me cant they just leave me alone? I didn’t even get dinner tonight. I don’t care. If just want to be happy again. If I had killed myself none of this would have happened. If I had never been born no one would hate me. I had never existed I wouldn’t have ruined everybody else’s night. I wouldn’t have ruined their lives ever. I want to die and nobody cares. I want this world to end so no one will hurt anymore. Anyone who has it worse than me, which I know there are, I rlly don’t know how u survive. If u r one of those ppl, u r amazingly powerful and strong bc I just cant take this anymore. I cant take this world. I cant take this hate. I cant take this pain and all this heartless uncaring. I don’t want to move. I want to curl up and die. Maybe even painfully bc that’s what everyone seems to think I deserve. Why am I still here? Why does my life still have to go on when everybody hates that I have it> Why do I have to suffer these pains and these sufferings that I just cant cant take? Please, dear God, I don’t know what to do anymore I know im sofar from where u want me and where u want me to be. I know I am everything u don’t want; ik u must be frowning and mad at me right now, but I can u understand how I feel right now better than anyone in the world. So plz, explain why I both had to go through this and be so weak. Plz.

[Dhriti]

nobody hates you:) when my grandmom screams at me and everyone acts dissapointed with me and my sister acts like a b****, i simply find my happy place.try it.it works.

[Dhriti]

@the punk in love with a nerd

dont kill yourself.whatever it is, it will fix itself, trust me, i regularly dream about jumping out of the window

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Hey

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

hi, Sorry I was at swim for about an hour and a half and then I was blocked at home. GRRR

[Christine]

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Hey anyone on??

[Christine]

I'm here lol

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

hey

[Ruzina, RANdomATor]

Hi PEOPLES!!!

[Christine]

How are you?

[Ruzina, RANdomATor]

Me? i'm cool...as a cucumber...

[I am Dangerous]

I am here tooo.

[I am Dangerous]

@Vamp,it's ur b'day today,i think??

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

@Rose: Hey
@ Asna: Yep

[Ruzina, RANdomATor]

Hi ellen and Asna! I g2g now!! back to school. I got English -_-

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

ℜ☺ṧ℮ т♄℮ *฿℮● ₩їT¢н *ℯḓ* wrote: "Hi ellen and Asna! I g2g now!! back to school. I got English -_-"

Have fun

[Christine]

I hope you have fun

[I am Dangerous]

❤❤❥❧❦Vamp Queen❤❤❥❧❦ wrote: "@Rose: Hey
@ Asna: Yep"

Happy B'day!!!!

my link text http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-9xwwdiCcl_U...

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Asna wrote: "❤❤❥❧❦Vamp Queen❤❤❥❧❦ wrote: "@Rose: Hey
@ Asna: Yep"

Happy B'day!!!!

my link text http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-9xwwdiCcl_U...-..."

thanks

[I am Dangerous]

How was the cake???I Searched 4 "Vampire birthday Cakes"

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

HAHA very funny, I am now at school meaning I just got up, so I did not have any cake yet.

[I am Dangerous]

School???Are u allowed to opperate Gr in School??

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

yeah,

[Dhriti]

nope.ide get kicked out.

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Hi Dhriti

[I am Dangerous]

❤❤❥❧❦Vamp Queen❤❤❥❧❦ wrote: "yeah,"

Lucky You.We are not even allowed to opperate Google in school:(

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

That is really sad

[Dhriti]

hey. one guy went on web cam in school and then the internet got disconnected.

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Dhriti wrote: "hey. one guy went on web cam in school and then the internet got disconnected."

that stinks

[I am Dangerous]

Dhriti wrote: "hey. one guy went on web cam in school and then the internet got disconnected."

Web cam in School!!!It's astonishing!!!

[Dhriti]

ive forgotten.i dont think it was him...do you remember when he went to the principal for ripping his exam paper?

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Dhriti wrote: "ive forgotten.i dont think it was him...do you remember when he went to the principal for ripping his exam paper?"

why would he do that?

[Dhriti]

❤❤❥❧❦Vamp Queen❤❤❥❧❦ wrote: "Dhriti wrote: "ive forgotten.i dont think it was him...do you remember when he went to the principal for ripping his exam paper?"

why would he do that?"

he got bad marks.

[Dhriti]

you have a perfectly good memory.you beat me in geography remember:D

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

You know he could of just looked at and see what he did bad and think of a way fixing it if he could redo the exam.

[Dhriti]

we cant.its one of the ways indian education sucks. but im pretty sure rohit would never ever redo the exam.ever.hes like that.

[Jack Frost, Jaquelyn, Jackie: {The empress of winter; The lonely white wolf }]

Well he could just looked at it and thought of how he could fix the mistakes.