Mae Mangulabnan > Mae's Quotes

“I should be happy, but instead I feel nothing. I feel a lot of nothing these days. I've cried a few times, but mostly I'm empty, as if whatever makes me feel and hurt and laugh and love has been surgically removed, leaving me hollowed out like a shell.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Disguise the pain. Don’t call attention. Don’t be noticed.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“What would I have said to him if I’d known I would never see him again?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I am rooted, but I flow. All gold, flowing …”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“The last wandering”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Even when we weren’t wandering, even from the floor of your closet, you showed the world to me.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Let’s go. Let’s count for something. Let’s get off that ledge.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Before I die I want to __________.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You saved my life. Why couldn't I save yours?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I am in pieces.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“We all have a shelf life.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I have this feeling, like I'm waiting for something. But I have no idea what.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Is today a good day to die?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“A string of thoughts run through my head like a song I can't get rid of, over and over in the same order: I am broken. I am a fraud. I am impossible to love.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“If there's one thing i know, it's that no one can promise anything.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You don’t know how it is. It’s like I’ve got this angry little person inside me, and I can feel him trying to get out. He’s running out of room because he’s growing bigger and bigger, and so he starts rising up, into my lungs, chest, throat, and I just push him right back down. I don’t want him to come out. I can’t let him out.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Maybe even the smallest places mean something.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Ladies and gentlemen,” I shout, “I would like to welcome you to my death!”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“The future is uncertain, but that can be a good thing.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You might expect me to say “life,” having just woken up and all, but it’s only when I’m awake that I think about dying.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“But that isn’t why. The why is that none of it matters. Not school, not cheerleading, not boyfriends or friends or parties or creative writing programs or …” She waves her arms at the world. “It’s all just time filler until we die.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I’m a fuckup. I’m broken, and no one can fix it.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“There are different ways to die. There’s jumping off a roof and there’s slowly poisoning yourself with the flesh of another every single day.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Is today a good day to die?

Is today the day?
And if not today–when?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“For a minute, I can feel it: the sense of peace as my mind goes quiet, like I'm already dead. I am weightless and free. Nothing and no one to fear, not even myself.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I can feel the worries fading away. I’m relaxed and happy—happier than I’ve been in a while. I am in the moment. I am here.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Velva Jean, sometimes dreams change, either because they have to or because life has something else in mind for you.”
― Jennifer Niven, Velva Jean Learns to Fly