B.R. Yeager > B.R.'s Quotes

“Tyler falls to his side. His body like rags. He begins to cry. A sound like colony collapse.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“All the world blurred, a vibrating hemorrhage, and it was fine because I could finally feel how little impact I’d ever have on the world. Losing that dread that one day you’ll somehow ruin everything, for yourself and everyone else. The realization that I could simply leave and the world wouldn’t miss me.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“the loop is everything that is happening or was happening or will happen. the loop meets its self and either it ends or it starts again.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“The worst part about knowing anyone is knowing only that tiny sliver available to you.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“As we pulled onto the road, I noticed a black and beige shape on the sidewalk. A goose. A goose, but everything about it was wrong. Its neck broken, twisted into a spiral. It dragged its head along the ground, waddling in circles, screaming. No one seemed to notice except me.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“He told me the planet had nerve endings. Sprawling out toward stars they’d never touch. He told me that when he breathed, the Earth felt it, and when the Earth breathed sometimes he could feel it too. He told me he wished his mother had miscarried.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“I never really knew whether my parents loved me or not. I guess I knew later. But those first seventeen years only ever felt like tolerance. They knew I was their fault, and because their god ordered them to love me, they held back their knives. But I knew the stories of fathers who cut their children to pieces, so most often I tried to make them feel like I wasn’t there at all. Most often failing completely.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“The most important thing anyone can know is this: just by existing, by inhabiting this planet and space, we are put into communion with entities we cannot begin to understand, in manners we cannot begin to understand. We float on the surface of an unfathomable ocean, and though we may stick our hands, our feet, our faces beneath, we can never go much farther without drowning.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“It’s easy to be shitty when someone loves you unconditionally.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“You’re going to die becoming what you need to be. But when that happens you won’t need who you are right now.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“No matter what happens to you, everyone eventually makes you pretend like everything’s back to normal.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“Time compresses the older you get. Days turn to weeks turn to months turn to seasons turn to years, until your life resides in just one moment expanding forever, where each step and breath folds wrinkles into your face, carving minute, irreversible wounds between your joints. Pressing down the notches between your spine, driving your ankles and knees to ruin. I feel it now and it’ll only be worse in the future.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“Every morning we’d go down and eat breakfast at the food commons. We’d walk each other to class, sharing and sneaking cigarettes. We’d get high and massage each other’s backs and watch amateur science videos on YouTube. We’d drop acid and go to the movies or finger each other in the back of punk shows. We’d hold each other in front of our altar, caressing between each other’s legs, humming gently in each other’s ears, watching a tiny rabbit dance with a tiny dog atop her dresser.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space

“The future pushed forward. Max went frail and splintered and perished (he went to sleep and stopped breathing). I took over his shop with his boyfriend, until he went frail and splintered and perished. Then it was me and Eugene, until he went frail and splintered and perished. The polar bears went extinct. East Boston sunk beneath the ocean. The west coast burned to cinder. Thousands died in a tube shot through space, floating frozen and static forever.
I’m still here. Here for some time.”
― B.R. Yeager, Negative Space