James Agape > James's Quotes

“There are times when I cling to happiness, and like a shot of whiskey, I consume it and feel its intensity within my heart and depraved soul in its entirety, and like waking from a dream, I awaken to my weary reality that’s riddled with sadness, pain, and emptiness. I can’t escape it, and so I try to manage my unhinged thoughts, which, for the most part, drive me insane only because I’m aware that reality is constant and inescapable.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“Don’t you see? You’re as free as the winds of the high seas, which blow in whichever direction they please. Cast aside the doubts mangled in your mind, spread your wings, and soar high like the eagle, for you are made in Christ’s image and likeness.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“I remember days when I used to be quite talkative, happy, and quick-witted. Then, as if someone flipped a switch, my persona changed when life happened. I got quieter, indifferent, and colder, and I couldn’t smile as often.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“My overbearing mind has dug its claws deep within me. I struggle to sleep every night. Hell, I'm tired of acting like I'm alright, yet I aspire to see the sunrise.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“At some point, I tried alcohol because I thought it would help me numb my pain. I just wanted something that would make me mellow and help ease my mental anguish. Boy, was I wrong? All it did was escalate my misery. As a matter of fact, I’d end up sobbing myself to sleep. It’s as if the liquor made my pain, suffering, and depression palpable. Don’t even consider the "devil’s drink" as a remedy. It’ll just add to your problems... Trust me, I have been there and done that.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“I'm at a point where I am not sure whether I am depressed or just numb inside. Because here's the thing: Nothing excites or captivates me anymore. Not movies, concerts, or hangouts. I'm just there. I feel nothing; I'm neither sad nor happy. I'm empty; that's how I feel. However, I'm thankful for books, music, and coffee. For now, all I can do is lose myself in books. Occasionally, I let my emotions bleed and permeate through paper. It's keeping me going. At least I have peace of mind.

The Depth of My Emptiness”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“All I can pray and hope for is that one day I’ll get to see the light, and it will act like a beacon to help me crawl out of this sunken abyss that I’ve found myself in. I’m confident it’s bound to happen because lately I’ve been dreaming of paradise. Perhaps it’s a sign of what’s to come.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“Worry and anxiety can drive you into a state of paralysis. I, for one, have experienced such, and I have figured it's best to face situations that drive up my anxiety head-on. That way, I don't allow my thoughts to talk me out of taking action. When I am worried, I try to focus on the present. Worry creeps up when we are constantly thinking about future outcomes. Live in the now and focus on getting through today.

Regaining Power and Control From The Overlords of Worry and Anxiety.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts

“These days, you might bump into long-time friends, old acquaintances, or just casual acquaintances and schedule a catch-up session, but the disappointing thing is that the conversations are shallow and surface-level. superficial, if you will. Where do you work now? Which neighborhood do you live in? How much money do you make? Are you driving? Oh, really, which make and model? I find it shallow. Few are those who dare ask whether you're happy and how you're faring mentally and spiritually. What's the point of accumulating all the materialism and riches this world has to offer if you’re still unhappy inside? Certainly, I understand that it makes life easier and whatnot. However, I think having genuine and deep conversations goes a long way toward forming better human connections. It’s refreshing.”
― James B. Agape, Pent Up Thoughts