Nur Amirul > Nur's Quotes

“You don’t know how it is. It’s like I’ve got this angry little person inside me, and I can feel him trying to get out. He’s running out of room because he’s growing bigger and bigger, and so he starts rising up, into my lungs, chest, throat, and I just push him right back down. I don’t want him to come out. I can’t let him out.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Disguise the pain. Don’t call attention. Don’t be noticed.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I know life well enough to know you can’t count on things staying around or standing still, no matter how much you want them to. You can’t stop people from dying. You can’t stop them from going away. You can’t stop yourself from going away either. I know myself well enough to know that no one else can keep you awake or keep you from sleeping.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You saved my life. Why couldn't I save yours?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You deserve better. I can’t promise you I’ll stay around, not because I don’t want to. It’s hard to explain. I’m a fuckup. I’m broken, and no one can fix it. I’ve tried. I’m still trying. I can’t love anyone because it’s not fair to anyone who loves me back. I’ll never hurt you, not like I want to hurt Roamer. But I can’t promise I won’t pick you apart, piece by piece, until you’re in a thousand pieces, just like me. You should know what you’re getting into before getting involved.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I should be happy, but instead I feel nothing. I feel a lot of nothing these days. I've cried a few times, but mostly I'm empty, as if whatever makes me feel and hurt and laugh and love has been surgically removed, leaving me hollowed out like a shell.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Listen, I’m the freak. I’m the weirdo. I’m the troublemaker. I start fights. I let people down. Don’t make Finch mad, whatever you do. Oh, there he goes again, in one of his moods. Moody Finch. Angry Finch. Unpredictable Finch. Crazy Finch. But I’m not a compilation of symptoms. Not a casualty of shitty parents and an even shittier chemical makeup. Not a problem. Not a diagnosis. Not an illness. Not something to be rescued. I’m a person.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Is today a good day to die?”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Theodore Finch - I was alive.I burned brightly.And then I died,but not really.Because someone like me cannot,will not,die like everyone else.I linger like the legends of the Blue Hole.I will always be here,in the offerings and people I left behind.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Before I die, I want to...be the person I’m meant to be and have that be enough.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“You might expect me to say “life,” having just woken up and all, but it’s only when I’m awake that I think about dying.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Before I die I want to have kids. Live in London. Own a pet giraffe. Skydive. Divide by zero. Play the piano. Speak French. Write a book. Travel to a different planet. Be a better dad than mine was. Feel good about myself. Go to New York City. Know equality. Live.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“Theodore Finch, April 3. “Today is your day. You’re off to Great Places! You’re off and away!”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I’m a fuckup. I’m broken, and no one can fix it.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I do my best thinking at night when everyone else is sleeping. No interruptions. No noise. I like the feeling of being awake when no one else is.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“People rarely bring flowers to a suicide.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“And in that moment there’s nothing I fear except losing hold of her hand.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“What a terrible feeling to love soemone and not be able to help them.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places

“I am broken. I am a fraud. I am impossible to love.”
― Jennifer Niven, All the Bright Places