“Yes, I have a terror for the future, blood-and-bone deep, but when I say I don’t know who I am, I mean that I do, and I wish I did not. I mean I am trying to unknow the knowing. I know I am not quite Adam and not quite Eve, both ill-fitting and constricting as a cheap man’s shroud. I know my desires; I see them reflected back in the gloss and glaze of your eyes, Thomas, every night I can. When I say I don’t know who I am, I mean I don’t know what to do with this knowledge. I mean that this is no Eden. I mean that some days, I wish I had never even seen the apple.
I mean, some days I want you to take the apple back.”
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Sarah Caulfield,
Harmonious Hearts 2016 - Stories from the Young Author Challenge