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“I realize now that dying is easy. Living is hard.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“I'm not sure this is a world I belong in anymore. I'm not sure that I want to wake up.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“Losing me will hurt; it will be the kind of pain that won't feel real at first, and when it does, it will take her breath away.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“It's okay,' he tells me. 'If you want to go. Everyone wants you to stay. I want you to stay more than I've ever wanted anything in my life.' His voice cracks with emotion. He stops, clears his throat, takes a breath, and continues. 'But that's what I want and I could see why it might not be what you want. So I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It's okay if you have to leave us. It's okay if you want to stop fighting.'

For the first time since I realized that Teddy was gone, too, I feel something unclench. I feel myself breathe. I know that Gramps can't be that late-inning pinch hitter I'd hoped for. He won't unplug my breathing tube or overdoes me with morphine or anything like that. But this is the first time today that anyone has acknowledged what I have lost. I know that the social worker warned Gran and Gramps not to upset me, but Gramps's recognition, and the permission he just offered me--it feels like a gift.

Gramps doesn't leave me. He slumps back into the chair. It's quiet now. So quiet you can almost hear other people's dreams. So quiet that you can almost hear me tell Gramps, 'Thank you.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“I'm not choosing, but I'm running out of fight.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“Fake it 'till you make it.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“I just wanted to tell you that I understand if you go. It’s okay if you have to leave us. It’s okay if you want to stop fighting.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“People believe what they want to believe.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“All I can think about is how fucked up it would be for your life to end here, now. I mean I know that your life if fucked up no matter what now, forever. And I'm not dumb enough to think that I can undo that, that anyone can. But I can't wrap my mind around the notion of you not getting old, having kids, going to Juilliard, getting to play that cello in front of a huge audience, so that they can get the chills the way I do every time I see you pick up your bow, every time I see you smile at me.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“It's quiet now. So quiet that can almost hear other people's dreams.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“Sleep would be so welcome. A warm blanket of black to erase everything else. Sleep without dreams. I've heard people talk about the sleep of the dead. Is that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that's what it's like, I wouldn't mind. If that's what dying is like, I wouldn't mind that at all.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“You just work through it. You just hang in there.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“Life might take you down different roads. But each of you gets to decide which one to take.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“If I stay. If I live. It's up to me.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“And now I am here, as alone as I've ever been. I am seventeen years old. This is not how it's suppose to be. This is not how my life is suppose to turn out.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“If you can't trust me with a choice, how can you trust me with a child?”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“Is that what death would feel like? The nicest, warmest, heaviest never-ending nap? If that’s what it’s like, I wouldn’t mind.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“What's that sound I hear?
It's just my lifetime
It's whistling past my ear”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“I remember watching it all and getting the tickling in my chest and thinking to myself: This is what happiness feels like.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay

“It doesn't rain every day. Just every other day.”
― Gayle Forman, If I Stay