How much of what I perceive is accurate, and how much is a distortion? Ethan points out that I’m coming up on ten years of sobriety. Certainly that shows I’m able to take care of myself on some level. I agree—and yet I don’t. I am capable—and yet I’m not. Ethan tells me to remember the dialectic. It’s not either-or. My experience right now is “both.” I am an adult and a child; protected and vulnerable.
