Colin (Unexpected, #6)

by Cora Rose

And let me tell you, I do yoga. I’m very bendy. What’s not to like about that? I should add that to my Grindr profile. Willing and able to bend. Just call me Mr. Pretzel.

if there’s one thing Americans know, it’s how to beat the fucking British.

I am a grown man on a healthy diet of chicken nuggets, macaroni and cheese, and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with the occasional piece of broccoli thrown in there. It usually ends up snuck into the trashcan, but at least I try to feed him vegetables. That’s all that matters, right? Maybe he can absorb the green by osmosis.

I cannot just go around flashing my dildo collection to any random man standing in his window.

This is for the weed outside. And for all of America, really. I won’t back down.

I think Sem would carry Magnus around everywhere if he could. They should make a onesie with a kangaroo pouch so Magnus can just sit inside while Sem lumbers about.

Hahaha facts

“You like what you see?” I try and tease, but I peg my prostate as those words leave my mouth and I end up whining. “Yes,” he groans. “You desperate little slut.” God, that word. I despise it. It’s degrading. “Say it again.”

“I’ll pick one up for you then. Be ready for me, Colin. I don’t like to be kept waiting.”

Is it because he was in my room last night? He did touch my knee when he came. Maybe he thinks we’re married now.

“Stop looking at his ass,” I reply. “Ass is a bad word, Dad!” Yes. Well, Son, you have no idea the filth that comes out of my mouth when you’re not around.

I am going to remember that while I am rejected quite often, I am worth it. I will be worth it to someone. One day.

“Did you know Paul Revere was an amateur dentist and an artist?” Ethan asks suddenly, and I blink over at him. Okay, is he trying to get me to suck his dick again? Because that’s how you get me to suck a dick. I am a total whore for historical facts.

“Do not talk to me about my son. How dare you judge me. I have the right to take care of my needs, Ethan. I am a person too, and I have every fucking right. Do not make me out to be the bad guy when I have devoted my entire life to that boy. And I have done it all alone for years, with no help. I can take one night off a week if I feel like it. I deserve that.”

I’m going to fuck him, and when we’re done, completely spent, I’m going to hold him. Just cradle him in my arms. I’m going to tell him that he can have something for himself. He can. As long as it’s with me.

“How did he die?” Well, he bit me, clinging on with those pointy teeth of his and I accidentally flung him into the fireplace. While it was on. He burned to a crisp. “Um, natural causes. Just old age,”

“If you keep this up, you’re going to make me fall in love with you.” The bowl clatters noisily to the countertop, and I feel my breath quickening. “Please don’t,” I say gently. “That’s not what this is. It’s not what it can ever be.” He looks at me for a moment and then nods, moving his eyes back to the sink, scrubbing at a plate. “I know. It never is. It’s okay.”

TEARS

I am going to change all his settings on his work computer to Japanese and watch him struggle.

need to have a chat with him about it. He keeps saying that he doesn’t do relationships, that this is just sex, and yet here he is on a Sunday morning making my son breakfast. He can’t keep doing this to me. I am so fucking confused.

God, I want him. I want him to stay the night, want him to enter me slowly and then hold me afterward. I want him to stay. To pick me.

“What do you want?” I ask, hope blooming in my chest. Does he actually want me? No one ever wants me. Please want me, Ethan. “I want you, it seems.”

“I told myself that I’d never fall for someone again…and then you walked into my life…. I am utterly and completely wrecked for you, Colin. Entirely fucking gone for you.”

I don’t want him to lose this—this brilliance and happy outlook on life. He must be protected at all costs. I can protect this. I can protect him.

Well, that’s not true either. This is just one big fest of lies. We should hire a priest to mediate.

“I would never leave you, Ethan. I would stay forever. If you let me.”

I fucking love this book so much 😭