Some days, the answers were clear as a bell: Yes, of course. For heaven’s sake, Elyn, clean yourself up! And so I did. But other days, the questions and the answers were just too hard to sort out. I don’t know, I don’t know. Or, simply, I just couldn’t remember: Did I do that already? Did I do it yesterday? Taking care of myself meant doing more than reading a book or finishing a term paper; it meant strategizing, organizing, keeping track. And some days, there just wasn’t enough room in my head to keep all that together. I’d left the Center,
