It’s a strange thing to miss someone who is right there. When I talk to you is when I miss you the most, because I am confronted by what I cannot have. It was then that I realized that, even in the wake of Yush’s death, I could never tell you the things I wanted to say. It was then that I realized you needed to believe in Papa’s worldview in order to survive and to justify the tragedy that had consumed all of us.
