I have a condition with an ugly name. One of the symptoms of this ugly condition is that I am afraid, profoundly, that I will be abandoned. The doctor says this fear is irrational, even though I have been abandoned before. I knew that Oglethorpe would think I was being irrational and silly and ugly. Untrusting. Jealous. Clingy. The sorts of traits that would make him actually fall out of love with me.
