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November 25 - November 25, 2022
“I knew you’d agree with me. I never saw myself being sexually involved with a demon who has a loose butthole, but here we are.” He clapped me on the shoulder and sauntered off to the bed. “What the fuck?” I cursed and glanced over to Sloane, Kai, and Cam. All three of them were shaking with laughter, trying to be quiet. I stormed over to them. “My butthole is not loose. Keep laughing, fuckers. One day, we’ll have a tightest butthole competition, and I guarantee you that I will win. It will be a whole event!” They laughed harder, and Kai grinned. “Did you hear that, guys? He wants to have a
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“What? It’s time? Finally?” Goldie practically whimpered. “Yes, my queen. Your body is ready. Have you been feeling an urge to push?” My beautiful mate paused. “Uh… well, I’ve been feeling like my butt was going to fall out or something during the last few contractions…” My wide eyes flicked across the bed to Cam, Kai, and Sloane, who were all mirroring my stunned expression. If I wasn’t mistaken, big Thunder Daddy was looking quite pale.
“You can and you will, Saige Wildes. You’re the strongest being in this room. Focus now, feel the comfort of your mates, the presence of the stars, and push those babies out,” Bette told her sternly. Shit, I didn’t even have babies to push out and I felt myself give a test push.
“Who is cutting the cord?” Balor glanced around and chuckled when the group of us froze. “Ah, come on now. It’s a little cut.” “Kai,” Goldie said, smiling at our Alpha while Faris and Fischer sandwiched her between them, each holding one of her hands. Kai’s gaze snapped to hers, his mouth dropping open. “Yeah? Really?” I couldn’t help but laugh as he started bouncing on his toes with excitement.
The moment her fist hit her mouth, she started sucking and chomping like a wild little monster, and I found myself chuckling deeply. “You’ll get to eat soon, little piglet. For now, you get to spend some time with your Papa. Come here,” I whispered, rearranging her so that more of her bare skin was pressed up against my chest. She started thrashing like the little monster I was quickly learning she was, and I yelped when I felt a deep suck on my nipple. Raising her higher, I helped her get her fist in her mouth again. “I know you’re hungry, but Papa doesn’t have anything for you. These chest
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Sloane took a deep breath. “Faris?” My Baby Fang startled at the sound of his name. “Yeah?” “Would you? Cut the cord?” Faris’ mouth fell open. “Really?” His entire face lit up, and it was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever seen. “Yeah. I want you to be the one,” Sloane replied, blinking rapidly, and I caught the look of adoration it earned him from Fischer. “Why?” Faris narrowed his eyes in suspicion. “Because, I don’t want you missing out on anything anymore.”
“It’s like… a big, bloody pancake thing,” Fischer noted, unhelpfully. Cam grunted something, and his eyes rolled back in his head. “Fuck, he’s going down!” Faris was behind him in a flash, holding Cam up just enough to soften his fall. “Yep. He’s out cold,” Baby Fang observed casually. “Was it the puke or the placenta, do ya think?”
My firstborn was the smaller of the two and the fussiest, but only when she was hungry. Which, coincidentally, seemed to be all the time.
“She’s my little sunray. Helia. Her name is Helia.” It was the perfect name.
“In my family’s language, it means safe, secure, complete. Or peace. I feel all of those things when I look at her.” I smiled. “Salem. I love it, Gup.”
Fischer had been showing him the proper way to wipe Helia, and when Sloane lifted her by the ankles, a loud gurgling sound had everyone freezing. I’d watched in horror as a stream—a freaking stream—of watery poop flew out and landed on the wall. Sloane had released her ankles in a hurry, and all but fell backward in an attempt to get away. Fischer and I had laughed so hard we cried. It was glorious.
“Why would everyone be worried? That’s ridiculous.” Gran sighed. “You really want to play this like that?” I didn’t respond. “Hm, well, let’s see. It’s been sixteen days since the girls were born, and you haven’t left this room. Not once. It was relayed to me that you’ve taken three showers during that time, and during all three, you had to have someone holding the babies in the bathroom so you could see them. You’re not sleeping. The last time anyone else held one of them was three days ago, Saige. Three. Days.” I reared back as though she’d slapped me. “That’s absurd. It hasn’t been three
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Breastfeeding was practically an Olympic sport.
“You’re depressed, Sprout. I’ve never seen you like this. I know that some sadness is normal after giving birth, but I think this is more extreme than the normal “baby blues.” “Depressed?” I brought my brows together as he worked the shampoo through my filthy hair. “I’m not depressed, Kai. I’m just sleepy. It’s been a lot lately, you know?” “It has been. Which just adds to everything else. You’ve been through so much over the past several months. We all have, and we’re definitely not feeling like ourselves yet... and we didn’t even go through pregnancy and birth.”
The problem was, my brain was telling me that by not being able to handle it, I was weak. That I didn’t deserve the babies I’d been blessed with by the stars. Why would they ever show me favor again, if I couldn’t even find it in myself to be happy at such a joyful time?
“Is that what you think I’m doing? Shutting you out?” I whispered, scared to hear the answer. “Aren’t you?” “No! I mean... No. I just... if the girls aren’t near me, how will I be able to see their chests rising and falling? Sometimes I need to be able to see that. If they’re not with me, I can’t and if I can’t see that then they might not be safe, Kai. I can’t...”
“Oh, baby… This is killing me,” Cam murmured. “I want to make it better. Tell me how to make it better.” “I don’t know!” I shouted against his chest. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me!” Kai whimpered as he ran his hands down my back. “Breathe, Cub. Just breathe.” “I’m just so tired and scared,” I whispered, feeling my body deflating. Cam stiffened. “What are you scared of?”
“What aren’t I afraid of? I have two gorgeous newborns who are perfect. I love them so much it hurts to look at them sometimes. I’ve nearly lost each of you to death or kidnapping, or something, over the course of our relationship. That broke me every time. I try to sleep and every time I close my eyes, I think I hear a noise—someone coming to steal my babies. Or if I don’t hear noise, I think they’re not breathing. I. Can’t. Sleep. If I sleep, something could happen.” I glanced between my two mates, their expressions a mixture of pain and shock. It was all coming out now and I couldn’t stop.
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“It feels like I’m swimming in a sea of sadness without a life jacket. Like, I’m trying very hard to stay above water… but sometimes it would be easier to stop kicking because I’m just so tired. But I’m scared to sink.”
“You might feel like you need to sink or swim. That’s black or white thinking. You’re forgetting you have a third option.” I looked back at my shifter, confused. “What do you mean?” Kai leaned in and wiped my wet cheek, pressing a kiss to my forehead. “Float. There’s nothing wrong with biding your time and resting.
Then here’s what we’re going to do. Kai is going to finish combing and washing your hair, then he’s going to slather you in that cocoa butter you think you need for your stretch marks.” He rolled his eyes playfully but the look in his eyes dared me to challenge him on it. I didn’t, and he leaned in close to my ear. “You’re the sexiest woman I’ve ever laid eyes on, baby girl.”
“Besmet? And nobody told me?” Ouch. That stung. Kai paused his brushing and turned my head to face him. “We tried to, Sprout. I tried earlier to talk to you and you didn’t seem interested. In fact, I don’t think you said more than three words to me. Then we sent Fischer in to see you. He said you were staring out of the window the entire time.” Fuck. Oh gods... I vaguely remembered them coming into the room earlier, but for the life of me, I couldn’t recall anything they’d said. It was just... blank.
Sometimes it takes hearing what others are seeing for us to realize we’ve been blind to our own behavior.”
“Faris was cooking?” What in the name of... “He’s been restless, and driving Sloane up the fucking wall. I kind of took him under my culinary wing, so to speak,” Kai explained sheepishly. “It’s been... Well, to put it lightly, it’s been a gods damn experience.” “Nightmare,” Cam coughed into his fist.
“As long as he’s moved away from toast, I’ll consider it a win.” “He’s not happy, but we hid the toaster.” My mouth fell open, and Cam winced. “What? He was going through enough bread to feed a fucking army, and it always ended up getting fed to the birds anyway. He was fixated on the damn thing.”
“You made me... a nest?” Bram was in front of me so quickly, his amber eyes pinning me to the spot. “We made you a nest, Goldie.” He lifted his hand and slid it through my hair. “It was a recommendation from an elder in Besmet. It’s been so long since we’ve had any births there, but he remembered his mother speaking about a friend of hers who was suffering after delivery. Much like you are. Her mates made her a family nest, not knowing what else to do. It soothed her, and greatly helped with her worries and depression.”
“I apologize, Firefly. I know how much you love my toast, but it appears the toaster grew legs and ran away.” He narrowed his eyes, looking suspiciously at each of my other mates. “Aww, man,” I whined, pretending to be upset. A snort came from behind me, and I shot Guppy a glare
I’d never seen anything more appealing than these big, dangerous, scary ass males holding their pretty babies. Gah.
Faris grinned as he placed the dinner tray over my legs. I took in the food options, and holy shit. I felt like I was in the movie Elf. Things that had no business being together were piled up in some kind of sick food orgy. Tortilla chips and peanut butter. Taco shells filled with marshmallows and drizzled with—I took a closer look—mustard? “Viper… I uh, my stomach is a little off right now. Someone mentioned soup earlier? Do you have any of that?” “Ah… no,” he replied, dragging out the end of the word no. “What do you mean no?” Kai jumped up, heading for the kitchen. “We had a whole pot!”
“Faris! Where the hell is that soup pot? The entire thing is gone!” Kai growled from the kitchen. Sloane sighed. “Where’s the soup, Faris?” The mischievous mage rolled his eyes, and I felt Sloane stiffen next to me. He hated when anyone rolled their eyes at him, but I suspected it probably really got him going when Faris did it.
“Oh good! You’re up. I can put on my jams now.” She shouted at Alexa to “Play my fuck around and find out playlist,” and I gasped. “Your what playlist?” She tossed her head back and cackled like the lunatic she was.
she handed me a large mug with stupid snail peens all over it. Bram and his creations…
He’d found me a female demon who was able to shed some light on things I’d been experiencing, explaining how they were caused by my demon side. Like the urge to keep everyone close, to nest, to feel secure, especially after birth.
I’d leaked through my nursing pads, bra, and nightgown, and the moment I got those wet clothes off, milk had started spraying like a freaking sprinkler. I had to pump and nurse to get all of it out. The look of horror on Sloane’s face as I sat there like a human fountain would live in my head for the rest of my life.
and someone would wake me just to check on the boob situation after four or five hours. Of course, my kinky little Viper offered to ‘take the edge off’ without waking me. I thought Sloane was going to throw up.
Last week, they’d been getting ready to leave, slipping on their riding gear and grabbing their backpacks, when I heard Sloane ask Guppy about his flame butt plug. I’d walked right into a fucking wall.
You’re a lifesaver. Rick and I are going to do a little Vegas trip and I want to be smooth as a whistle to receive his meat missile.” “Okay, I’m out! Enjoy your wax! BYE!” I practically ran from the room and up the stairs.
“Son of a bee sting,” I cursed, noting that the cars were gone. Six weeks ago, I’d pushed out two whole ass people from my vajingle, and now they’d only left me my bicycle. Stars, have mercy. I hadn’t ridden my bike in so long, which I was quickly reminded of when my thighs started burning. Oh, I was going to kick some ass.
“Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you.” The doorbell jingled again, and I looked over to see… Cam? “What are you guys doing here? Can you wait in the back or something? There’s a—” Cam held his finger to my mouth, a grin forming on his own. “We heard there’s an apartment for rent?” He lifted a brow as he stared down at me. My eyes darted around. “Nnn—” I started to say no slowly, but then I realized this was probably some kind of kinky role-playing situation, and oh my moon maidens, I was here for that. So my “Nnn” turned into a “Nnnyessss?” which had both of my mates cracking up.
Oh shit yes. I felt like I was in a live action porno, ready for all the dicking. Each one of them looked like they wanted to snack on me like I was corn on the cob. Though maybe not quite that… teethy.
“Where are the babies?” “With Bette,” Sloane replied, eyeing my thighs. “Oh,” I squeaked. “But she’s not taking them to her waxing appointment, right?” “For the love of Saturn,” Guppy cried, as all of them covered their ears. I blinked. “Ohhh. There is no appointment, is there? Soooo, you guys are the new tenants?” I waggled my eyebrows. “Perfect,”
“I gotta tell you all, I’ve been… missing you. I didn’t expect such an elaborate plan to, you know, get my toes wet again.” I winked, and instead of the looks of lust I was expecting, they all looked confused. No matter. They wouldn’t be confused for long. “The apartment is upstairs, but I’ll show you the interior entrance through here. It’s just out the… back door.” I winked and spun on my heel,
I stared on in horror, flicking my focus from this parade of people to my mates—some of whom would be dead soon, because they were laughing their asses off. “Child, why in the name of the stars are your boobs out right now? Is this some kind of demon custom, Bram?” Gran demanded of my mate. “We don’t typically do topless proposals… At least, not in public settings.” She batted her eyelashes at Rick, indicating that she’d like to do something topless with him.
“You ruined the surprise, Bette!” Randy Roger scolded, tsking. “Well, how was I supposed to know it’d turned into a game of free the boobies?”
“Saige Wildes,” Guppy said, loud enough for everyone to hear. “We thought it would be appropriate to do this at the place where you first bewitched us,” Kai piped up, propping his elbow on his knee and his chin on his fist, his smile broad and all for me. “I might not have particularly liked you at first,” Sloane muttered, and everyone laughed loudly, making him blush. “But you did bewitch me, nonetheless.” “Who would’ve thought that the woman who, honest to gods, thought she was going to drive my Harley with zero experience and make me ride on the back would have all six of us so completely
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“What we want to know, little witch, is if you’ll be ours forever? Will you bind yourself to us in a ceremony in front of those we love and care about?” Sloane reached into his pocket and produced a small black box, flipping it open to reveal the most unique, gorgeous ring I’d ever seen. In the center, a Nox stone had been shaped into a crescent moon. The band was thin, consisting of seven strands of some type of metal, but each piece was a different color. The colors of our different magics were twined together, completely wrapped up, each color connecting with the others, just like us.
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