it was my big brother who acted as the calming presence in my life, the wise voice of reason who helped me make sense out of the confusing and often tragic events in life. “Who is there for me now?” I remember asking God over and over. Even though I was happily married with three wonderful children and had a full and busy life that included a large extended family, many friends, and wonderful colleagues, I felt utterly alone in the dark sea of grief.
