They say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Well, the problem of being human isn’t really so temporary and sometimes a permanent solution seems like the best possible way out.
It breaks my heart to know that Nic considered suicide at some points in his life. He says that one of the things that saved him was seeing a person try to kill herself. It scared the hell out of him. But still I understand the desire to escape pain. It’s why some people do kill themselves and why some use drugs. Life is hard and sometimes it’s more than hard and seems unbearable. But it’s also true that suicide and drugs can seem like solutions to problems that can never get better, but that’s because it can be impossible to see hope when we feel that bad. From my own life I’ve learned that as bad as things get if I hold on, the depression or fear lifts. Which reminds me of the John Lennon song Nic quotes in his other memoir, We All Fall Down: Hold on, it’s going to be all right. What I’ve learned is that as bad as things get, they will get better. I’ve also learned that we shouldn’t try to go it alone. It gets better quicker when we don’t hide what we’re going through, but reach out to others, whether it’s family, friends, counselors…. Anyone. I’m so proud of Nic. And inspired by him. I love his honesty.
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