If Only I Had Told Her

by Laura Nowlin

I’d rather give away all my games than lose a minute of whatever has been happening between us since Jamie broke up with her.

young love

We weren’t touching, but it felt like the atoms between us were warm with my love for her.

Even the atoms new they were meant to be together

This is heaven: her forehead pressed into me, her head under my arm, and my hand on her shoulder. We found each other by instinct.

Instinctive love

It’s more like Autumn is a real princess but from an alien planet. She is the most confident and insecure person I’ve ever known.

Finny's alien princes

It is cosmically unfair how beautiful Autumn is. It puts me at such a disadvantage. Her brilliant, goofy brain was already enough. Why must she have a perfect face too?

Shes to beautiful for him to resist

How am I going to live the rest of my life in love with Autumn Davis with no hope of reciprocation?

There is hope

My love for her is the closest thing I have to religion. But it’s okay that she doesn’t feel the same. I’m fine. I can handle it.

Open your eyes she loves you

Maybe you are the two stupidest people on earth who somehow don’t realize you’re in love with each other,

Please dont be stupid

My devotion to Autumn is engraved on my very being. I am in awe of her. I will sit in the stands and cheer her on in life as her most ardent admirer. I know I will always love her in the same way I know I’ll always need oxygen.

Autumns biggest admirer

Books are Autumn’s real life. She is made of the stories she has read.

Books are who she is just like me :)

If only I’d told her that I loved her years ago,

I wish you had

I have to do this, and I have to go home.

He never does

It seems so obvious now; it matters which people you spend time with, and it matters how you spend your time, because you don’t know how much you have.

The scariest truth