If Only I Had Told Her

by Laura Nowlin

But over the past few weeks, it’s become clear: I love Sylvie, but I can’t say that I will be in love with her every day for the rest of my life. I adore so much about her and understand her foibles, but I’m not devoted to her. She’s a partner but not a part of who I am. My devotion to Autumn is engraved on my very being. I am in awe of her. I will sit in the stands and cheer her on in life as her most ardent admirer. I know I will always love her in the same way I know I’ll always need oxygen.

Not the comparison between both females 😔. I am already feeling sad to Finny.

Alexis said Sylvie saw him herself. Saw him dead. Dead. Finn. This is a new world. Finn is dead. I am numb.

I feel his pain 😭