I have not achieved enough in life. I feel that my abilities exceed my attainments. I feel I could do more. . . . I vegetate, my ambitions like rotting weeds around me. I want to paint. I want to study languages: French, German, Spanish. . . . What else? I want to exercise. I want to meditate. I want to read. I want to see people. I want to take in more culture. I want to sleep enough. I don’t want to watch junk television any more. I want an end to the binge cramming of food into myself every evening. . . . I want to live!*
