Made me hate BJ all over again. I haven’t in a while. Loving him took over the driver’s seat. I made a year’s worth of bad decisions when I hated him and Paili for what they did to me. Once I realised I only hated BJ as much as I did because I love him as much as I do, I continued to make a few more months’ worth of bad (and arguably spectacular) decisions with Julian, and it takes all of my self-control not to run right back there, because I could. How he looked at me the other week when I went to visit Daisy? I could. But I don’t and I won’t. Because I love BJ more than I want me to be okay,
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