I commit to making a change. No more fantasizing about her or allowing myself to fixate on her body. During class, I’ll keep my mind on the subject matter. I’ll think of her as a student in need of guidance. Yes, pity is a good counterbalance to lust. You can’t want to fuck someone you feel sorry for. The flaw in my plan is I don’t buy it. I’ve already acknowledged a big part of my attraction to her is her strength. She had to be strong to survive losing her family, moving here alone, working to make a life for herself.
