I’m merely helping you see what God might be up to in the circumstances you’re in. He doesn’t need you to pretend. You’ve got some honest questions and deep struggles to sort out here. God’s big enough to handle them. Don’t run from your pain or try to hide it from him. It won’t impress him and it won’t help you. Take your anger to God. He knows how to bring you through this and show you his glory in ways you never dreamed.”