Choke

by Chuck Palahniuk

He was assaulting the world by assaulting himself.

That if enough people looked at you, you’d never need anybody’s attention ever again.

Spoiling the surprise, I mean. You’ll see it all yourself, soon enough. That is, if you live too long.

Another petrified moment to treasure.

What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.