This is all to say that for my whole life, my day has begun with a profound sense of wishing something was different. Usually it revolves around what I’ve done or what I need to do. In this way, every day begins in a sort of prayer, no matter how inarticulate. When I wake up thinking of what I’ve done, I often feel guilt over the day before. When I wake up thinking about what I need to do, I often feel anxiety over the day to come.
