The Tragedy of Felix and Jake

by J. Daniels

can I drive us tonight? please? my car stopped smelling like u and it sucks so much :(

Maybe being a twink is in your future.”

LMAOO BYE WHAT

Hector lights up. “Yes. This threesome just became a foursome.” “A power bottom foursome,” Miguel says exuberantly.

THESE TWO DUDES BRO

“Aw. He’s cute, Jake,” Miguel says, panic instantly flooding his face. “Oh shit. I mean, he’s here! Felix is here, Jake. Did you see?” He laughs nervously.

IM GONNA CRY HES SO STUPID I LOVE HIM

“The pizza!” Hector shrieks, and I think he’s serious.

FAVORITE CHARACTER GIRL BYE

“Can you say it? Please?” Can I say it? Yes. I so very easily can. “He touched you. Nobody touches you.”

“The only reason I haven’t fucked you yet is because you’re my sponsor.”

;)

Everything is fine. * * * Everything is not fine.

Me core

“We’d be so good together. I just know we would.”

“Everything is stacked against us,” I say. “We’d be a tragedy, Felix. This wouldn’t work.” His smile is confusing. “You don’t agree?” I ask, and how fucked up is it that I actually hope he doesn’t. “No. I agree.” He steps closer and presses one (last) kiss to my mouth. “I just know that wouldn’t stop me.”

Okay, yes, I’m a chronic exaggerator, and when I say life isn’t fair, I’m only focusing on all the bad stuff.

Thats so me

I’m pretty tired oh ok cool me too tomorrow we can bang if you want

LMAOOO

***hang I meant we can hang

Sure you did

And if holding your hand like you’re my boyfriend wasn’t a hint; I’ll spell it out for you—I want you to be my boyfriend.”

“If I had to knock your smartass out, I would’ve done it. I would’ve kept you out, Jake. Tackled you. Fucking dragged you. Whatever I needed to do. Even if it meant swallowing every fucking pill in that house—I’d do it so you couldn’t.”

“I’m fine with it!” Riley hollers, and I quickly glance back to catch her waving at me before she slips down the hallway. “I totally ship you guys by the way!”

I LOVE HER BRO I THINK I LOVE EVERYONE (except thd obvious…)

“I was getting a very strong Piscean vibe the other night. Which we all know just happens to be the most romantic sign.”

BHASHSHHSAHKKHSVAA

Then I turn around and stalk out.

Oh uhm okay! WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!

“I’m so happy you love eating ass, Jake.

LMAOO

“You make me feel better than any drug I’ve ever taken.”

Jake smirks and slides his hand around my neck to tug me flush against him, and we kiss like we’re in love. Because guess what? We are. :)

we’re so excited to fuck in a public place. (Milestone!)

“Lucky. Am I right? I should be the one getting stuffed.”

“I love you! Please! I love you!” I love you, Felix. I really fucking do. I sink to the bottom where it’s quiet and dark.

WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING IM SCARED

I love you. I’ll love you forever

I want Jake to wake up. I want it more than anything. But if he doesn’t, I’ll be okay. I’ll live, and I’ll be okay (eventually). For both of us.

“I promised you we’d be okay. I didn’t take it.”

“Because I’ve waited my whole life for you. And for this. Us.” I squeeze his hands. “You’re my fucking family, Jake, and we’ll fight this. Together.”

“You’re my fucking soulmate, Felix, and I don’t even believe in that shit.”

We’re soulmates, after all. But Jake’s leaving. And he doesn’t know when he’s coming back.

Sto im crying

“You can do this,” she says. “I know you can.”

I love her sm :(

“We’re never saying goodbye. This is just… this is I’ll see you soon. Because you will. You’ll see me on the first visit day and every one after that. And then every chance I get to see you, I will. I’ll drive to you, and hey, I can do that since my boyfriend is letting me borrow his car until he comes back. I’ll visit whenever you want me to, Jake.”

“You’re my favorite person in the world. Nothing’s going to change that, okay?” “O-Okay,” I choke out. “Where are you going to be in four years, Jake?” “Sober. With you.”

Two Years and Ninety-Seven Days Later

NOW THAT IS FOUL

Our tragedy was really great, wasn’t it?

I’m sorry I couldn’t be as strong as you are. Please beat this. Do it for me.

What…

“Ready to go home, baby?” I ask.

Today, I am eight hundred and twenty-seven days sober. My name is Jake Tully and I’m an addict. And I’ll always be an addict. I’ll never beat this. But I’ll keep going to meetings, and I’ll talk to my sponsor (who I’m going to ask to marry me), and I’ll fight this until I win. We are going to win.

STOP THIS MADNESS IM CRYING

We did it :) Jake + Felix Tully <3

I CRODE