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February 13 - February 16, 2023
“It took me too long to figure out what you are to me…” Her eyes pinch as she slides me my drink. “What am I to you?” “Oh, I don’t know—” I give her a little shrug, stare straight ahead. Take a long sip before I look over at her. “Like, just — everything.”
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It’s not my favourite thing, but also, I have about fourteen thoughts running through my mind of what I’d like to do with her and I know I won’t get to do one of them if she’s shitty at me, so I give her a glare then look over at her best friend. “I’m joking, Taurs. I’m sorry.” Then follows a silence. Christian cocks an eyebrow, Jonah smiles confused and Taura sits back in her chair, arms crossed over her staring at Magnolia.
Like get a grip please Julesss, he’s so whipped
Gone for that fake work thing he had to go to to get away from all my favourite people, and I know that we’re being stupid, and I know one of us should just make the call, because it needs to be made
Fr it’s getting a little ridiculous now
A Judas Kiss, that what Jack always calls it. The kiss before a break up.
That was when Rush and Tom had their big blowout. Unfortunate timing for Rush Evan’s face that the England Family were on their boat in the Riviera when The Sun ran a series of photos of Magnolia and Rush lounging around together on a yacht, kissing and shit.
Messss
“Do you?” I nodded my chin over at him, a bit amused. “Are you willing to stake your life on that?”
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“You’ve wanted me for five years and I’ve sort of wanted you maybe for, like, three and a half weeks, so really, it’s no skin off my back…”
Sorry she ateeee with line
Her cheeks are going pink so her eyes are getting brighter and I’m fucked because what am I going to do—? Say no to that face? “Nah, fuck it—” I swipe my hand through the air. “I’ll make it work—” I tell her.
STAND UPP
“This is telling…” Koa says from the corner. Magnolia looks over at him. “What is?” My friend and I catch eyes from opposite sides of the room and he goes to say something annoying but I cut him off. “Nothing.” “Oh, it’s something—” He shakes his head, amused.
Can you meet me somewhere? The Lion’s Gate
She’s bringing Christian tooo yeahhh
And then I feel someone saddle up next to us. Showtime.
Messy time!
“Oh—” I glance at it out of the corner of my eye. “You got a new one.” “Yep.” Christian nods. “Just upgraded to the P220 Legion Full-Size.”
In the middle of a stand off with the cops
“Daisy—” Tiller starts, brows low like they always are around me and I shake my head at him, gun pointed square at his face. “We’re done,” I tell him.
She’s such a bad bitchhh, in a whole police pub, you’ve got guns facing the police
I press the barrel against his forehead over my favourite scar he has, as
“Don’t tell Jules—” “Oh—” He gives me a different look, steeped in anger. “I’m going to send him a fucking singing telegram about this one, Daisy, you twat—”
“Twat” looool
I move past him, hope he can’t tell how crushed I am as I do and our shoulders brush then he says, “Actually — no. Fuck it.” He grabs me by the waist and bangs me backwards into his car, pressing his mouth up against mine in this perfect, rushy way. He kisses me for what feels like ages — a new age — or an old one?
Ahhhhhh
Christian is New York City on the horizon. He’s the tea and blankets that wrap me up on the Carpathia. He’s the Statue of Liberty — I’ll give him my tired, my poor, my yearning to breathe free—
Poetryyy
I have her in a headlock and she’s trying to backwards-kick me and has fish-hooked my mouth— Both Haites siblings are standing there, frowning over at us.
Oh shit that was the context for him in this scene loool
“And I said that, and then Parks said she still loved Beej, and then it just felt…fucked—” I shrug again. “So we stopped.” “Oh,” she says quietly. “Okay.”
Good he’s telling her early in though
“Doing what?” Henry asks, eyes pinched. I leave it hanging for a couple of seconds. “Daisy.” I give him a proud smile and Henry chokes on his drink.
Not the dramatic pause
since we first hooked up at my car. That fucking car, man. I love it. I’ll never get rid of it. It belongs in one of her museums.
“Who the fuck do you think?” BJ shakes his head annoyed and Jonah sighs like we’re up to our old shit again.
Nah For real, can we not just just focus on Christian and Daisy? Like straight to Parks as usual
“I don’t know…” I shrug. “Jules blew off Balaska for her—” Jo looks surprised at that. “Piss off — Josette? He did not.”
Jonah loves a good gossip
“Do you think that perhaps instead of going out tonight and seeking validation from different men because you feel rejected by the two boys you’re romantically interested in, you could stay at home and work on processing those emotions?”
Miss Bridget
“Oi—” He smacks Jules playfully in the arm. “Then do you mind if I take her out for a spin?”
Omg is this what caused the fight? Really? I thought it was gonna be about business
He goes to move past Julian and then — I don’t know how, it’s pretty fast — Julian grabs Carmelo by the neck of his shirt and twists it so it’s almost choking him, then yanks him close to his face. “Will you—?” The room seems like it goes silent, like everyone’s holding their breath —
“Julian, stop—” Magnolia tells him, staring at his eyes, waiting for him to look back at her. “What are you doing? He’s your best friend—”
“He’ll listen to me- Julian this isn’t you…”
Is it really that deep to fight a fellow gang lord over Parks?
Bit embarrassing how I got the other night.
Very embarrassed
Magnolia’s standing in my doorway — I can tell instantly she’s been crying.
I wish I liked Magnolia more but she isn’t the one for Jules
“Don’t you go soft on me…” she tells me playfully and I give her a look, pin her down at her wrists and then it’s happening.
What’s happening?!?
“In another life I reckon I could have loved you,” I tell her. She gives me a little smile back. “In another life I would have let you—” Never you mind that I already love her in this one.
And then her face lights up and — get this — so does his. “Alright—” I turn on my heel. “Well, you two are — yuck. Get out of that rug and we’re going to—” I gesture behind me to leave.
Julian get it together, they’re meant to be friends with benefits now you’re doing too much
“I literally told you — I said it right to your face on New Year’s—” I shake my head at him. “You didn’t say you liked me — you said I was—” “Everything to me.” He nods once.8 “Yeah. Was that not obvious — to you? You, with the double doctorate and the—?”
Like girl what do you think that means??
“Let me be clear now then, Daisy—” Gives me a tall look. “I am fucked up in love with you.9 Have never stopped loving you, since the second I realised I did, and I admit it, it took me too long to know it but I know it now, and I can’t unknow it. I don’t want to unknow it, I want to be with you.”
Tears in my eyes🫠🫠
“God,” Magnolia whispers, elbowing my brother. “She’s not so good at reading between the lines, is she?”
😭😭
“I think they were already in love though.” She lifts her eyebrows. “Thanks to…” Jules gives her a rueful look. “Hate to break it to you Tiges, but honestly probably in spite of you. At least to begin with.”
😭😭
“Felt like time.” Roisin MacMathan leans back in her chair. “And where is my niece?”
Ain’t this the woman Daisy doesn’t want him to work with?
Mum nearly died on the table after having Dais — PPH. Dad didn’t even know; she had Dais, Dad took her, sat in a chair gazing at this baby girl, forgot his then-dying wife on the table.
That’s traumatic
“Hm.” She gives me a small smile. “Threats are so funny, aren’t they? They’re empty if your life is—” Her eyes pinch. “Tell me, Julian, is your life empty these days?”
Hmmm are they the ones that put the hit out on Parks?
Uncle Callum did not like that one. His head pulls back. “Do you know who you’re talking to?” Daisy Haites, love of my fucking life, cocks an eyebrow. “Do you?”
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“You love him. I love no one. Yeah?” I’m lying through my fucking teeth, but I am serious.
“Great!” She jumps to her feet and launches over to him, fishing out of her pocket a little Métier leather-clad measuring tape and she spreads it out across his shoulders. Hughie freezes. “What sizes are you?” she asks, looking at him.
I cannot believe this… I’m sat here flabbergasted
A coincidence, I’m pretty sure — Cian turning up like that. Or just Ro trying to power move me, so fuck her, I’ll take Magnolia out if I want to.
I can’t believe this??? Juliannn
I’m staring straight down at the face of Ezra Brown. “Julian!” He beams up at me. I put both my hands on Magnolia’s shoulders.
Oh hell
It’s the great undoing of my heart as I know it. She’s made herself at home, kicked off those fucking cerulean heels, put her feet up on my left rib. Over the mantelpiece she hung her own portrait up herself, that little minx. Best painting I’ve ever seen, too. Better than any woman anyone has ever painted in the history of time, a face I’d win battles for. A face I’d lose anything for. Even her.
I love her more than I’ve ever loved anything and I thought I might have been able to angle it, find a way for us to work.
Goodness me
He grins down at Daisy with bleary eyes. “You’re a little bit magic, aren’t you, Daisy Haites?”
Awww this was so cuteee
I’m bent over for a couple seconds before I straighten up, wipe my bloody mouth with the back of my hand and sniff a laugh.
Waited for a fight between the two of them but BJ fighting a whole gang Lord like is it that serious
“You know what, Tiges, I’m embarrassed to say that I’ve fallen into the ranks of men who find that there’s very little that they wouldn’t do for you.”
Jesus
He shrugs but it’s a passive nod. “Not like, everywhere, just like — Instagram, Facebook, BBC, Loose Lips, TMZ, Tell Me Lore…”2
Loool not the BBC
