“It’s…a lot to take in, Beck. I don’t blame you for Tanner, I never would. He’s an amazing gift to the world but I can’t just ignore what happened between all of us and all the years in between. You can’t just snap your fingers and make us a family. I can’t just hand over my heart to you, especially with Tanner. The stakes are so much higher with him in the mix. I barely made it through the last time you broke my heart. If I let myself love that child and all of this blows up again, it will kill me. I wouldn’t be able to survive losing him too.”
