So if I’m sitting in a chair and talking to someone at a party, the only way to focus on our conversation is for everything else happening around us to disappear. I can’t focus on the entire picture happening around me, it’d be like trying to focus on a bunch of multicolored objects flying around at warp speed and trying to pick out the various colors splattered onto each one. If I focus too intently on even what’s going on in our corner, I can feel my clothes, the chair, voices start blending into one; if I look at their face it will warp and change. This is where stimming comes in, to
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