I’ve met someone who convinced me not to deflect the blame inward. Ever since then, my own head doesn’t torture me as much and I’ve started to feel safe. I no longer have panic attacks and the instances of sleep paralysis have become few and far between.” Mum’s hand falls from my cheek to my shoulder, and a warm smile peeks through. “Is that someone the American boy?” I rub the side of my nose and nod. “His name is Jeremy.”

