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“I’m not your property, Jeremy. I’m a person.” “My person,” he nearly growls the words. “Next time you let anyone touch you, I’ll fuck you in their blood and make you come all over their corpse.”
“This is the final time you ignore me. You will never come to a place like this without me again.”
“We’re not in a relationship,” I say, despite my shattered voice. “You have no right to tell me what to do.”
“Being in a relationship or not doesn’t make you want me any less. Feel your cunt taking my cock so well and your body coming alive for me? No one else, me.”
That’s not what you want, Cecily. Far from it. You love being chased and degraded. You love being fucked into oblivion until you lose control. You love being my filthy little slut.”
For the life of me, I can’t understand why a mere touch from other guys turn me into a hyperventilating mess, but Jeremy is able to fuck me up, splinter my world to pieces, and I don’t feel threatened.
thought you left.” “I’m obviously still here,” I murmur back. “I heard the front door open and close.”
“How the hell am I supposed to explain you to Ava? We’re not in a relationship.” That’s the second fucking time she’s said that sentence tonight. The difference is that she doesn’t sound accusing now and is only stating facts.
“Do you want to be in a relationship?” Her lips part the slightest bit, but that’s enough of a sign. “What?”
“What does being in a relationship with you mean, Jeremy? That you get to order me around, have me do your bidding while you continue to push me out? Because that’s called ownership, not a relationship, and I’m not a fan.”
“A relationship means compromise, giving and taking, a partnership. It’s not an imbalance of power where you have the last word in everything and I’m along for the ride.” “You love the ride.”
“Sexually, yeah, I do. I give you free rein to do whatever you please in that department. But not in the real world, Jeremy. I’m a human being with feelings, fears, and preferences. I’m also an independent person who cherishes her freedom. If you force me all the time, I’ll eventually close myself off from you. I don’t want that, and I’m sure you don’t want that either, right?”
“Say it.” Her brow furrows. “Say what?” “What you want.” “I just want to know more about you. It’s unfair that you’re the only one who knows things about me.”
“Have you always had this kink?” “Since I hit puberty, yes.” “When did you first act on it?” “During that initiation when I was chasing you.”
“You…never tried it before?” “No.” “Why not?” “I didn’t trust anyone to do it with.”
“My scum of an ex,” she snarls at the mere mention of him. That’s my girl.
I’ll wait for her to fall asleep and then I’ll find out exactly why the blond fucker and his friend approached Cecily tonight.
early morning, and while this operation was supposed to happen late last night, I kind of couldn’t leave when Cecily fell asleep in my arms.
And I may have spent hours watching her sleep like the creep she labeled me
The fact that I actually struggled to peel her warmth off me and leave is bothersome and downright annoying.
“Here’s how it will go. I’ll punish you for daring to come near Cecily and having the audacity to touch her, and I will make sure it hurts. I’ll also leave a scar so you’ll remember me. Then you’ll remove yourselves from her life. If I spot you within a ten-mile radius of her, I will fucking kill you and dump you so deep in the sea, no one will find your corpse.”
Cecily Morning. Thanks for these
I spend a full minute of intense staring at the sparkling heart but still can’t find an explanation for it. One thing’s for sure, I like it, and it caught me completely by fucking surprise since it’s the first time she’s sent one. Then I notice that she attached a picture of a box of waffles I had delivered to her apartment earlier.
How did you know I love waffles? It’s in her stupid journal. I think they’re her comfort food whenever she wants to feel better. I thought she might need a pick-me-up after last night.
While she didn’t have any sleep paralysis, she shivered while she slept in my arms and tears clung to her lids. That’s part of the reason why I couldn’t bring myself to leave until she fell into quality sleep.
I know everything about you. I’m about to tuck away my phone, expecting her to be too busy preparing for school, but her reply comes immediately.
This little fox is too smart for her own good.
More like, he was a pseudo-stalker. Seriously, the one I need protection from the most is you. Too bad no one can protect you from me. Don’t be so sure. I can stand up for myself.
I sent them to you, not Ava. Sharing is caring. I don’t share. Everything about you is mine.
Are you seriously jealous of my best friend? Who’s also a girl? You give her too much of your attention.
Okay, Mr. Caveman. Have a nice day, and please try not to hurt anyone
I keep staring at that emoji longer than I did the first one.
“What does a sparkling heart emoji mean?”
“Uh, don’t all the heart emojis mean love and affection?” “But it has sparkles around it. They should mean something else.” “I’m not sure.”
But Cecily rarely talks in emojis. She’s too straightforward for that. Still, I want to know exactly what she meant by sending it.
“Who got you smiling like that?”
“Uh-huh. Didn’t know memes made you look like you’re in love.”
“The fact that he talked to you is. He was close.” She holds her thumb and forefinger a hairsbreadth apart. “This close.”
“You smelled like him, and you had these puffy lips, watery eyes, and flushed cheeks. I think I’m going into a state of shock.” “Hey—” She holds up a hand. “I just need a moment to process things.”
“Is it true?” “Is what true?”
“Everything I heard and saw and eventually deduced?”
“Oh my fucking God. This is huge.” She drops her leg to the floor and leans forward in her chair. “When did it start? How? Why is it Jeremy, of all people? The Jeremy Volkov. Why is the scary big guy at TKU the one you gave up your prude status for? You hated him! Most importantly, why didn’t you tell me? I thought we shared everything.”
Jeremy didn’t promise me anything, but he also didn’t say no to what I asked. I know that with time, he’ll come around. I’ll try to make him come around.
“Now, tell me, why Jeremy?” “I don’t know either.”
“It’s nothing of the sort. We’re just winging it.”
“Cecy, I love you. I really do. But you don’t even know the meaning of that word. Besides, Jeremy definitely didn’t look at you like he was winging it.”
“All right! I can’t believe you’re still a prude even after sex with a beast like Jeremy. He looks like he likes it rough.” You have no idea.
Jeremy and I didn’t really talk about whether or not our arrangement will remain the same, but there’s no reason it shouldn’t.
Worry about yourself and don’t even try to provoke me. Just because I’m not there doesn’t mean I won’t take action. Just like what you did to the guys from the other night? They deserved more.
Did you also hurt TKU’s American football team because of me? Maybe.
