Daisy Haites (Magnolia Parks Universe, #2)

by Jessa Hastings

And so I’m happy to be here, happy to be in Paris, happy to be distracted from whatever the fuck is going on with Christian, but also, not really—because the City of Love isn’t all that good at making you not think about the person you love. So I’ve thrown a blanket over my feelings for him and now it sits there in the corner of me… This big, misshapen lump of a man I refuse to love but obviously do, and he overshadows everything now4 and I hate it, this pathetic version of myself that loving him has turned me into… How I scroll past his photos on Instagram without checking because I don’t want to know that he’s in Greece with Magnolia and all their stupid, beautiful friends.5 My heart’s mind is a little disaster, that much I know, because in the car on the way back from the airport, Romeo’s on one side and Christian isn’t on the other and that’s what I’m thinking about. And when Romeo kisses me at night in the bed that Christian isn’t in, I’m thinking about that—and, you don’t need to tell me, I know that it’s fucked up. Miguel says it a defense mechanism because Romeo hurt me too many times before and I said, “Yeah, but Christian’s hurting me now” and Miguel said, “I know, you’re an idiot,” in Spanish.

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