I’d give Aleks whatever he wants at this point, and that’s the problem. I really am falling for him. I want to convince myself that this is fresh and new and that we have plenty of time to learn who the other is, but my heart is racing ahead of that. I’m not in control. There’s nothing calm and careful about the way my feelings are full speed ahead for him. It scares me. I should be smarter than that. I’m not.
