"You can’t blame yourself for how I am, Spence. It is what it is. I’m going to get better." His face is pinched with regret. Spencer is not happy which is a problem. It’s his birthday. This is exactly why I never wanted anyone to know about my struggles. These demons I fight are mine and mine alone. They don’t need to punish anyone else. "Let’s have fun. Please don’t worry about me. It’s your birthday." He pulls me in for a hug and says, "I love you. I won’t overstep again. You’re a grown woman, and you can date whomever you want.
