Dig

by L.A. Ferro

"Pretty girl, you taste like forever."

"You’re mine now, Aria. Do you get that?"

"Aria, I want all of you, not parts of you. There is nothing under this shirt that will change that for me. You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever laid eyes on. Let me worship you, pretty girl."

"Aria, what part about me saying that you are mine did you not understand? There are no takebacks. I’m not letting you go. If you want to take things slow, that’s fine. I’m not trying to force myself on you, for fuck’s sake. I’m just trying to understand."

"Holden, you can have any girl you want. You can have perfection. That is something I can never be. You think you want me, but that’s only because you haven’t seen me."

"I know this because I’m just as fucking scared. I feel it, Aria. It’s all or nothing with us, baby, and I can feel you falling; let me catch you."

because only a fool could fall this hard so fast.

"Trust me, this pretty pussy will be wrapped around my cock soon enough. I’m yours, pretty girl."

I’m not the one that broke you, I’m not someone you need to fear, I’m just a man who wants to be a part of your world."

If I’ve learned anything about Holden in the last 48 hours, it’s that his love language is physical touch.

That I was sexy, beautiful, and his.

"Be bold, Aria. You already pack a punch."

"Because I needed you to miss me so that when I came back, that pretty heart would know it's mine."

She doesn't want me to peel back the layers and discover her ugly. The problem is, I'm not going anywhere. She is my light in the dark, and I'm not letting her go.

I'm slapped with the realization of what this is. My girl has an eating disorder. The beer, the comments about not being what I want, her insecurity with her shirt, the wrap. The wrap was probably all she ate all day. Fuck. This hurts. I grab my plate and move to sit beside her instead of across from her.

One: I fucking love that I'm helping her with something that hurts her. Two: she's following directions like she loves it, which is sexy as hell. And three: regardless of whether or not she knows it, Aria has a banging body.

I watch as she walks to her bedroom door and looks at herself in the mirror.

"We all have a weakness, pretty girl. None of us are untouched by grief, pain, or loss. At the end of the day, some of ours are easier to identify than others. But I promise, you are not alone. We have each other. You've uncovered all the better parts of me that I thought I'd lost. And I promise to help pull you back when it gets dark."

"I'm forever yours, Aria."

Holden pulled my tennis skirt to the side and fucked me long and slow with his bedroom door open while his parents were only feet away watching TV in the other room. It was the hottest sex of my life.

I’m glad I decided to take a chance on him and let myself have something because, while I might still be incredibly self-conscious, he makes me feel beautiful.

"Oli, I don’t even know where to start. Holden is everything. He is the epitome of the perfect guy that every girl thinks doesn’t exist, and for the time, he's mine. I ask myself daily how a guy like him could ever want a girl like me."

When the person you are today isn’t the person you were yesterday, and you feel lost and alone, call me.

"Aria, let me bring you back, pretty girl. I’m envious of the strength I see in you, your grit that sass, and don’t even get me started on that ass…"

She loves dirty talk, praise, and voyeurism.

"Aria, I love you, pretty girl. I’m so fucking scared you are going to push me away. That you don’t think this is real."

"I wouldn’t say it out of obligation. I would say it because it’s the only word that fits how I’ve felt about you since the first night we met. I’ve never been in love, Holden, but I can’t imagine it’s not this. You’re all I think about. You’re the last thought I have before I fall asleep and the first one I have when I wake, along with every other thought after that, but it fucking terrifies me."

Now I just have to make sure I can keep her.

"I’m scared, Aria, so fucking scared. Everything we have scares the hell out of me. It all happened so fast, and now I feel like I’m waiting for the bottom to fall out. For all of this to blow up in my face. For fate to laugh at me and tell me this was all some sick joke."

Just promise you won’t stop fighting for me. I need you to dig. When I’m not the man I was yesterday, dig. DIG until you uncover the better parts of me, the parts that belong to you."

"I love you, Aria. So damn much."

Holden: Aria, baseball starts up again in three days, and classes are in two weeks. We already only see each other three days a week, and you always come to me. I don’t want to put you on the back burner. You deserve so much more. I think we both knew this was coming. Go find someone who can give you the world.

"Aria, they don’t know what to do. They feel helpless because you’re battling something only you can fix in the end. You need to dig deep and find the strength within you to choose better, to want more, and to love yourself. Aria, growing up, I wanted to be you. You were always so strong and confident, not to mention witty as hell. You still are when you’re not stuck in your head. Somewhere along the line, you veered off your path. You just need to find yourself again. We have our entire lives ahead of us. This is just a bump in the road, a tiny spec that you’ll one day look back on and find that this moment didn’t define you. It built you. It made you strong."

Choosing me is no longer going to be hard.

"You want it to hurt, baby. I can give you pain. I’ll give you all the pain I’ve lived with every day since you walked out of my life."

"Look around, Aria. This entire fucking house is a shrine to you. This is the spot we had our first date, the first time I ever held you in my arms, the spot where I kissed you for the first time and told you that you were mine. When I pulled you into the water that night, you told me you didn’t like water you couldn’t see in. This dock is so that you could be on the water and not in it. It’s always been you, pretty girl. It will only ever be you."

"Don’t do that, baby. You’re all I ever wanted then, and you’re all I want now."

"Today wasn't your fault. It happened because you make me feel Holden. You always have."

"I loved you then, I love you now, I’ll love you always."

Nate’s

My hand finds her pussy and I rim my fingers around her tight hole before pushing my seed back in. "I don’t want this coming out."

"Relax, big boy, you have forever."

"Then, now, always, pretty girl."