didn’t know I had it until I had it. But he seemed to identify immediately what would come to eat at me for the next few months, which was actually very simple: I hadn’t performed my optimal best, because I was overcome by the moment. He told me that I had made the big match different—that I gave it additional gravity. As I reflected on it, I knew he was right. I got there and I thought, Oh my god, this is Fargo, the national tournament; I’ve been hearing about this for years! If you win here you usually get a college scholarship.
