I want to throw up my hands and say, Let’s stop this here. I’m clearly not cut out to be a swimmer. But I know that’s just my ego talking. I’ve been thrown off-balance, as I so often am. It takes humility to get through a process like this, and that’s what I’m trying to gather about me right now. If I want to swim better, I need to know nothing—be nothing—for a while. I need to put myself into somebody else’s hands and allow them to reform me. I need to let go of the part of me that knows better, the part of me that thinks I’m doing it right, the part of me that wants everyone else to believe
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