More on this book
Community
Kindle Notes & Highlights
“I’m in love with you,” I murmur, and his body shudders in my hands. “And I’m pretty sure I have been since the moment we met.”
The sounds leaving me are ugly
I’m biting my lip, writhing in bed, remembering it… Him opening my pants and stuffing my cock impatiently between his lips.
Me just reading this going SIR YOU ARE IN A BORROWED BURBERRY SUIT
“Right… Well, when you see that asshole Ash Holloway, make sure to punch him in the face for me.” Avi chuckles. “We don’t know it was him who told the dean…” “Uh, yes, we do. He’s her fucking nephew… Plus, he’s clearly in love with you.” “Then why would he want to get me kicked out of the dorm we live in together?” I can hear the grin in his voice.
I dont think it was Ash... Im thinking Theo is a little bitch and we can remove his feet
Kay…” I bite my lip, because I really don’t want to hang up, and it’s fucking ludicrous. “Say it first, Kyran,” he whispers in my ear. I roll my eyes, but my smile is seriously bordering on psychotic. “I love you, Avi.” “Mmm… I love you, HGB.” “You’re an annoying idiot.” I bite the grin off my lips, and he laughs. “That’s my man.”
AHhhhhhh
I can see it all so clearly now. I’m gay, and I’m in love with my stepbrother. There it is. Wow… This must be what really great drugs feel like.
Iove them so much
Tomorrow will be a huge day… Biggest game of my life. And for the first time ever, it really feels like I have someone to win for.
Fuck yeah baby!
Because more than any of the rest of it, I can’t deal with Avi finding out the truth. It’ll change everything.
What truth
“He made you this way… He made you for me. Now beg for forgiveness.” “Stop…” I gasp, heaving for breath.
Who hurt my ky?!
And if I end up losing Avi the way I lost my family… I don’t think I’ll want to exist anymore. Love is fragile… delicate as glass. And my truth is a stone thrown.
I hate these words... Im scared
But then Bridget’s smile falls away and she murmurs, “I should have paid more attention… to why he was becoming so nervous. I should have been there more… told my father to fuck off with that—” Her voice cuts out, and she peeks at me. But she doesn’t finish her sentence. She just gulps her drink back fast.
With what??????
To top things off, Theo missed a field goal… His first miss of the season.
REMOVE THE FEET
“Fuck yea!” I shout while Bridget woos and we high-five. “That’s what I’m talkin about!” “Number eighty-one is a beast!” Bridget cheers. “That’s my son!” a lady with tanned skin and short spiky hair says from behind us, clear excitement shaking her voice.
Fuck yeah Guty!!!!!
The ball flings up into the air. A Notre Dame guy lunges for it. But then Kyran reaches up and grabs it, securing it back into his arms as he falls into the end zone.
Ahhhh yeah bb!!
His arm flies up. The ball soars. Guty catches it. Touchdown. The Eagles just won the fucking Rose Bowl, baby.
Ahhhhhkhkxkgxttzxktxkx
“That’s Father McAdams,” Bridget whimpers, then snarls with the same fury I’m feeling in my veins. “The fucking monster who raped my brother when he was twelve.”
I KNEW IT
The archdiocese has agreed to dismiss and laicize Father James McAdams of Cathedral of the Holy Cross in South Boston, per out of court settlement with the family of Kyran Thomas Harbor, Somerville, MA. The Church will pay out a sum of one-point-four million dollars to the family. Settlement professes nondisclosure…
A FUCKING SETTLEMENT???
ALSO where did this money go Thomas???? You piece of shit broke ass loser!
“A s-settlement??” I stammer, shaking my head.
EXACTLY
“When I… mentioned that I was going to call an ambulance, he suddenly snapped out of it and his head started flinging back and forth while he cried no… over and over.” Bridget stops with tears tumbling down her cheeks and she swallows more liquor. “I took him into my room, got him dressed, and put him in my bed… And he was crying and crying.
I am so fucking upset
But that night when I came home, it turns out Kyran had told Dad. And do you wanna know what our father said…?” I’m exhausted as I breathe, “I’m guessing he didn’t believe him…” “I’m sure he knew it was true,” she grunts. “But he told him he was overreacting. That he was just making up stories that could destroy people’s lives.”
FUCK HIM
The money went into a trust in Kyran’s name, but he said he’d rather die than touch a dime of it.
Poor baby
“So yea… I guess it did tear our family apart. Mom and Dad fought nonstop, and they filed for divorce three months later. But no one ever stopped to check on Kyran. No counseling, no therapy. Nothing. Denial… That’s it.”
Hannah better leave this motherfucker
Kyran: BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!
How was i ever mad at Kyran?? Im so mad at this beautifully brillant author for breaking my heart like this and making me not like kyran even for a second!
I can’t believe he can be so happy, even with this stuff living inside him. He’s truly amazing.
He really is!!
“Actually…” I croak, then clear my throat, reaching for Avi’s hand. It’s clammy, and I can feel his fingers shaking as I thread mine through them, yanking him closer to me. “She’s right.” “Kyran…” Avi whispers frantically, shaking his head. “You don’t have to do this. Not now…” “I do, though.” My lips quirk into a small smile, to let him know I’m fine. It’s okay. I can do this. “I have to. I mean, I want to…”
Oh shit
“We’re together,” I speak quietly, then straighten. “He’s my boyfriend. I’m his…” My voice trails, and I peek at Avi, watching his lips slope into a timid smile. “I’m his boyfriend.” “You’re so much fucking more than that,” he breathes, and my heart jumps as I reach for his jaw. “I know,”
Ahhh
At that moment, Theo stomps over and plops into the seat next to Guty with a stressed breath and a bottle in his hand. “Anyone else wanna get drunk?”
Ooo i dont trust this bitch
“Kyran… Please,” he says, softly, like someone who’s trying to stop a vicious psychopath from attacking. “Let’s just talk about this. We can talk about it…” “Talk about what…?” I mumble, covering my face with my hands, backing up farther. “There’s nothing to… talk about.”
I hurt
“Kyran,” he hums, and I blink hard. “Talk to me. Just tell me you’re okay…” “Stop treating me different,” I whimper with tears threatening to push out of my eye sockets. “Stop… looking at me. I don’t want you to see how broken I am…” “You are not broken.”
And then he stuffs it into my foreskin, like he’s feeding his cock mine.
Docking??! Yay!!!
“Yea… fuck yea. More…” “More?” “One more…” “Okay… One more in your warm, tight cunt.”
Oh damn
“I’m gonna fill you deep…” “Breed me,” I gasp. And that’s it. Game over for Avi.
Woooof
It might be time that I also stopped running from myself.
Please
Me: Hey babe! Where are you?
My anxiety!!!
“Are you in your room?” Guty asks. “Yea… I mean, no. I went for a run now I’m… getting coffee.” he mumbles something again, like he’s covering the phone while talking to someone else. “Dude, what the hell are you doing??” Guty barks at him.
Sus
Unknown: Hey it’s Guty. I got your number from Bea. Unknown: Coach just got a message from Kyran… He went home. I gape at the message until my eyes ache with the need to blink. Me: He went home?? Why???? Guty: We’re not sure. All he said to Coach was that he changed his flight and went home.
Dvuuuuexbxo
“What?” I sigh, rubbing my eyes. “That’s so fuckin’ sweet.” Theo blinks, a little pout tugging at his lips.
it really is
“No… In fact, he’s very secretive about a lot of things,” she breathes, her eyes flinging to the suitcase on the floor. “Aviel, I’m leaving him. We’re getting a divorce. I just can’t handle the secrecy anymore.”
Thank fuck
“God is faith, Avi. Faith in yourself, as a part of the world as it turns. And for all the hate, and sickness and despair we experience, there are equal parts love and joy. You just have to look up.”
My heart
@Backwardz_Avi: I’d give up candy for the rest of my life for one more kiss… He’s all the sugar I need.
Sobbing
Me: Hey, baby. I know this might hurt, but push through it for me. I’m fine and safe and I promise I’ll be back soon… Knocking on your door for good this time. I love you, angel. Thanks for saving me.
God go home
“But that’s just it, Mom,” I mutter. “I’m not okay, and I haven’t been healthy. Not emotionally… That’s why I left. Because sure, it looks like I’m winning on the outside, but inside, I’m still scared shitless.”
damn get her
Say the fucking words out loud, because they’re true, or so help me, you’ll lose your son. I will walk out of this restaurant, and you’ll never see me again.”
Oh shit
My lips quirk, and I huff a small chuckle, shaking my head. “More importantly, I’ve always been gay. I was born this way, and it’s just a fact. Also, I’m in love with Avi, and I want to be with him. So… yea. That’s that.”
Yes baby!!
“Okay, listen… You guys don’t know the reason why I left, so I understand you’re just protecting your friend, because you think I broke his heart. And why wouldn’t you?? I’ve been bullying him and running from him for forever. But the truth is that I’m in love with him. I’m so crazy in love with him, and I just want to be with him… To hold his hand, and buy him Twizzlers, and listen to him talk about reptilians. I want to support him like he’s supported me, and I want to see his eyes sparkle when he’s excited. I’m in love with Avi Vega, wholly, truly, un-fucking-deniably.” I bend to make eye
...more
Squeesee
I’m in love with an angel.
Im sobbingggggg
I’m in love with an angel… And his name is Avi.
I cant stand it
“Alright, alright… Hold your—” But all my rumbling annoyance dissolves with my voice when I’m met with hazel eyes, golden hair, and a puffy pink grin. “Wow…” Kyran sighs, cocking his head. “You look… distraught.” My brow furrows, blinking rapidly as my mouth hangs open. I’m gawking at him for a solid three seconds before I’m finally able to stammer, “N-no, I don’t…” “You do.” His beautiful grin widens, and surely, I’m hallucinating. He’s not really here… This must be a tulpa I’ve manifested in my state of lonesome misery. “You look like you’re doing just… awful without me.” I’m shocked.
...more
My babiessszszzzznzxnnn
“Soak my prostate with your hot cum…”
Ew lol
Tell me how you wanna come, my beautiful, big-dicked slut.” “Ohhfuck… oh fuck oh fuck… Avi, I’m a slut for your cock.”
I can not with these two
“Fuck the cum out of me, Daddy,” he chokes, and I rasp a breathless chuckle, watching his eyes roll back in his head. “Fuuuck… fuck my ass. Fuck… my… tight… Oh God, I’m coming!”
DADDY???
